By the time you all read this i will already be home, probably in my bed catching up on the latest drama episodes that I missed the past few weeks.
I just wanted to thank everyone from the bottom of my heart, for each and one of you that I lived with and that I met and befriended. Friends that I haven’t met for a long time and friends that I just met.
I have so many memories of each and one of you that I will keep close to my heart forever. You all made me so much happier, so much more content with life and really helped me live my dream for once.
If I could I would give you all the world coz that’s how important you all are.
When I first came to Korea I was a little bit scared, what the hell had I done? Just moved half across the world for kpop. I didn’t know anyone in this country and this house.. this house opened its arms and just let me in like it was destined that I would be moving in here. You all took me to your heart and I really don’t think you have any idea of how big of a space you took of my heart.
Teaching me so many things, laughing and joking with me, taking care of me, helping me with so many things that I couldn’t even dream of doing or needing.
I would never have passed school if I didn’t get so much help from everyone, especially Lucas, Josephine and Dahye too. And the rest of you guys too of course! All the studying time that we had together, sleeping in cafes trying to study, the “cheating” before every test where we would question each other and give answers just to pass the finals and midterms.
There are so many things that I will bring with me filled with memories and I really hope that I somewhat made your days brighter too just like you guys brightened up mine.
Kpop has, as you all might know by now, had a huge impact of my life and to be able to share it with so many people is amazing. Without Becca, Jing, Mallory and Kira I would never ever have been able to experience so many new things and to come so close to what I’ve been longing for so many years. We went to so many concerts, music shows, fanmeetings, showcase, fansigns and god knows what. Every little thing involving kpop, from old groups to absolutely fresh groups, and to be able to talk about it with mutual and you all just KNOW what’s its about and its –nothing- weird about it.. that’s amazing.
The fact that you can show someone a picture and everyone just understands, or talk about fanservice or how that special guy made YOU feel like you are the only girl in the world and everybody just listens and agrees and is just glad that it all happened. That is amazing. No words can really tell how amazing that is.
All the late nights that I stayed up with the house, or as I always called them, my family. The parties, the crying-omg-im-so-drunk-nights, the heartbreaks and breakups, late night snacks, the movies, the trips that we have made. It is all so damn precious to me. To the ones living in the house now to the ones that already left us, you will always always always no matter what be a part of my family and will always have a place to stay at no matter how long time has passed since we last spoke. Friends come and they go but a family is forever no matter what.
While im writing this Jeongju is sitting in the room with me and everyone else is asleep. She should also go to sleep since she has to wake up for work in just a few hours. Its so silent in the house and yet she is awake just to print some of our memories for me. How amazing isn’t she? She has always been a person that gives so much to everyone else. I will miss you so much and everytime I see a new flower grow I will think of you ;).
And Dahye that has helped me so much, just take this week as an example, when she helped me call different restaurants for booking tables so the house could go out and eat but ended up calling a lot of different takeout places to get home delivered food. And to get all my petty little cravings in food like pork (I literally wrote porn first…..) in sweet&sour sauce, pepperoni pizza and chicken without bones and deadly spices. She really does know me too well <3. I will really miss you and like you said on my beautiful poster, its not the end! We will always have Europe !! I hope both you and Jeongju really understands and knows how much you too mean to me. I don’t think I could ever explain how much I love you two.
Alex who helped me without a problem in the kitchen for the Christmas party and without complaining about a thing. Without you I wouldn’t have been able to make such a great party and have so much fun. And you helped me with my freakking heavy boxes without complaining too. You really are a special guy and I hope you really truly know how much I appreciate you and how thankful I am to you. You always makes sure that everyone is alright and that is a great thing of you. I will miss seeing you and hearing you asking about my day.
Theo theo oh my theo. To think that we lived in the same town and not knew each other. Well, okay we all know why, but it would be really weird to not have you in my life anymore. Make sure as hell that you come back and we will party Växjö-style. On the furnitures in my house that is. But Im really gonna miss you and your dark humor that we both share. The friendly bickering, the chocolate balls…. Im gonna miss it so much. I never managed to get good chocolate balls and then we just made it FANTASTIC. Damn those balls.
Peter, even tho we didn’t spend that much time together I am truly grateful to you. I had an amazingly fun time with you and you were always so thoughtful and helpful to me. Without a complaint you drove me to DMC so early in the morning and helped with my computer in so many ways which means SO much to me. I wouldn’t have made it without you! Thank you for everything really.
Nadia my little topolino. I wish we would have spent more time with each other since hanging with you is really funny and easy.I am so happy for the things that we have shared I do hope that we one day will share it again, either in Sweden or in Italy. I wish that you will get to see as many artists as I have done during my stay and that you will continue to do great in school and have an amazing life here. Im really gonna miss you!! And next time im gonna see you dance in person ;).
Jiyeon- you will have to ask someone translate this for you haha. Even tho we didn’t live together that much I am really happy and grateful that you were my roommate. I have never in my life seen a girl that can sleep that long and that much. That is AMAZING. I mean, I thought I could sleep long but damn gurl. You win by miles haha. And even tho we were both lacking in language I really had fun with you and I loved that we spent time together doing fun things as going to the movies, eating together or just talk. Next time I see you I will be better at Korean and you will have to be better at English ;)! Go to England and learn :D!im really gonna miss you and you are a great friend <3.
Mallory- I have no words for how happy I am that you and I became friends. You have really been an amazing friend and especially after Becca left. Without you it would have been so boring and I am so glad that I had you. You are an amazing person in every way. Thank you so much for everything. Its so hard to explain it but I hope you get my feeling. Im gonna miss you terribly much. Thank you really.
Jing- My little ahgase. Without you I would never have had the same experience with Got7 as I’ve had this year. I am forever grateful for all the things you have taught me and helped me with.I have had such an amazing friend in you and I will miss you so much. I have had such a great time with you and im gonna miss our cold night campings. Next time we will be gold and let others wait in the cold instead…. !!
Lucas- Without you I would never had passed school honestly. I never thought that it would be so hard learning Korean and I am so thankful and grateful and god knows what for all the help that I have gotten. The way that you explain something thousands of times over and over again so that I could really understand the meaning of it, its worth more than gold. Please continue to always be my teacher <3.
I will miss you so much and I WILL see you in Sweden again. I wish I could explain better how much you have meant to me during the hard times and the struggles. But also for helping me with other stuff, like…. The concert ;). Thank you so much and I will miss you so much until I see you again!
Keiko- You are an amazing person with one of the biggest smiles in the world. You make everything seem so easy for some reason and I really admire the way you get friends wherever you go! Im never gonna forget our first meeting at Luhans house, sitting out in the rain and talking about PH. Ahaha. Or all the free concerts we have been to. The hottest day ever in Incheon and doing all of the tasks just to get a bottle. I had so much fun with you and you really have to come to Sweden now. You have to many friends there !!<3
Luhan- I am going to miss you so much my son. I have had a great time with you and I am so happy that I went to your house and partied with you guys. You mean a lot to me and i am really grateful for having you in my life. You always did bring a smile to my face as you used to sing and you will continue doing it for the rest of my life. Thank you for being a part of my life.
Zen- My little little baby. I am going to miss you so much and I am so sad that I didn’t get to meet you before I left. You have meant so much to me during my stay here and I hope you understand that too. You always made me feel special and I am so grateful for that. It really means a lot to me that you were my friend. Thank you so much and I will miss you so so so much.
Np- my little precious baby. I am gonnamiss you SO much! You are so precious to me and so sweet and kind. I have had the greatest time with you and I will never forget our picnic at hangang this summer hahaha. So funny <3<3<3<3. When I come to Thailand I expect to meet you :)!!!
Junghwan- I am so happy that I went to Thursday party and met you and started to dance with you guys. I usually never do that but I am so happy that I did. You have really made a difference in my life and I am so happy to have such a friend like you. Still think you are crazy for not liking the ikea food but on the other hand.. its ikea ;). Next time you try, it will be in my kitchen by my own hands. ;) thank you for everything!!
Jeongmin- my brother. I will miss you so much !! And I do hope that you keep your promise and come to Sweden :D ! Thank you so much for living in the house with me and all the times we spent together. It really meant a lot to me.
To all of those that I didn’t mention personally- you still mean a lot to me and I love you all so dearly. I have no words for all the love that I have received from each and one of you and it will forever be in my heart and mind. I am so grateful to have met you all.
Seoul- my second hometown. Hapjeong, the place to be. I will miss you so much. I know its not the last time and as it looks right now I will be able to go there even sooner than I first thought. You have no idea how much you have done to me. Strengthened me from the bottom of my heart, made my dreams turn into life, showed me that I can do these things. Things that I never thought I was able to do or see.
And to Kpop. My big thing in life. The things I have been able to do this year that involves you. All the concerts, fanmeetings and tvshows. All the boybands that I’ve been able to see and meet. Its even more clear to me that this is what I am meant to do and have in my life.
Thank you for the year of my life. Thank you for everything.