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"An endless fight"

Hi Brothers and Sisters and welcome back to my blog again...

(If you don't wanna read all the way down just scroll down and you can now listen to it instead !👇)


The summer is finally showing itself (when I say finally don't think that I have been waiting for it, cause I hate Summer) but it kinda feels irritating now to see that even the weather is unsure , it literally is soo sunny one day and the other day raining as if all the clouds have been shifted to Stockholm... But the worst part is when you don't know what to wear... not because I own all the clothes of Stockholm but because it looks all sunny from the balcony but when you finally decide what to wear and go out, the weather just suddenly changes it's mind to windy instead, and it feels like you took one day to choose your clothes, wear them and finally come out... but no this is the weather of Sweden....


Something which is worse than deciding clothing is when you have to choose between two things, and in some cases you're even aware that the one choice is gonna change your whole life...

And I'm a type of person who always listens to my heart ... I really mean always... because I know people who only listens to their heart when it comes to relations like love and friendship... But nope I always listen to my heart !

But my problem is that when it comes situations were I have to choose between things, from small to serious things, both my brain and heart starts to decide... It's as if they start fighting against each other...

And it always ends up that I choose my brain first because I can't figure out which one I'm choosing and it feels like my heart is always late in making decisions because I always realize at the end that the choice I made was wrong ,

I don't know if I'm the only one whom this happens to, I hope at least some people can relate to it !

But the problem is that it doesn't work out in every situation that you can change what you just said or choosed because trying to make someone understand about the endless fight within me would sound soo ridiculous...

And as I mentioned in my last post, I believe in faith and destiny which means that, according to me... what's meant to be is meant to be... If it's gonna happen then it will... but sometimes we get the chance to make an impact in our faith...

(I know it's sounding all stupid now... but that's what I think)


I'm known as the Google source among people I know, but the answers comes from my heart of course... and that is the difference... and most of the time people come to me for taking advice or just talk their heart out and know what I think... because I somehow always manage to have a perfect answer to their question, but when I need help myself I don't even know whether I'm working or not, It's as if I'm suddenly out of system or something...

So I can just help people through but not myself... fair enough.... But some days ago someone asked me a question which I actually don't know if I really answered from my heart because yes I gave an answer but I don't know where the answer came from...

The question was: "If you were to get two options, do you think the choice you make is a part of destiny or do we make our destiny, or does the destiny change according to what choice we make ?"

That is the first question I still don't have any answer to... I guess that I need more time to think...

But let's that be the question of the day as I don't even know by myself and I would be very happy to know you people's answers !


Advice 8: If you are not sure what to choose or what to answer, don't answer then because It's better to wait and give the right answer which you know you won't regret later !


Thanks to everyone who read all the way down or listened to the whole podcast, take some time to like, comment and subscribe to both the Youtube channel and my blog...

The next post will come at next Saturday 6 PM, so until that take care, stay tuned for the Q/A and have a wonderful continuing afternoon ! 💙😘


/Simmi.


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"Live for Love"

Hi Brothers and Sisters and welcome back to my blog again....


(If you don't wanna read the whole post you can now instead listen to it as a podcast, it is at the end !)


Yes I know I did It again... I skipped posting... But I had my reason ! No matter how much I say sorry no one will really understand or try to get me... So let's just skip the sorry and trying to explain part and come to the point ... or what I'm gonna talk about...


It's crazy how much life gives us and at the same time takes from us... It's like having an unknown deal with life... were the rule is: "Take what you want, but I will take something or someone from you", but the problem is that we don't really know what is going to be taken from us and when... It's just to wait until the time comes and you start to regret of asking too much, there is were the realization starts... the flashbacks and more regretting !


I have meet so many people who say that life is so beautiful ! Like yeah it might be... but I have never really said that... Yes I am realizing that I'm sounding all negative now but honestly I have never said that... maybe a few times just because people claim that and you really don't wanna start argue ... but It never came from my heart...

(Please tell me I'm not the only one...)

Maybe because I never felt what you need to feel for a "perfect life"... But I'm a person who believe in faith and destiny... I believe that everyone's time comes... there is a time were we struggle more than ever and a time when we can just take it easy, no extra tension, but for getting to that point we need to struggle for it...

That struggle is the worst... I somehow just manage to think that I will give up, cause I have been struggling for 16 years, and sometimes It feels like I can't take more...

But every time I fall down I try to think that maybe is my time near, how can I then just give up.... and then there is a person whom always helps you through all shit... that person who always supports you but also sometimes makes you weak too... the person who wants you to be stronger than ever... the person who says "I hate you" when you say that you love them just so that you get used to things, but deep inside they love you... the person who feels so helpless when you cry because they can't do anything except watching you cry and say "that everything is going to be fine"

We never realize it but that person is more hurt than us... because I guess everyone knows how it feels when you wanna just change everything to make it perfect, as perfect as possible... but you can't... you can just wait and let the time heal... that pain hurts soo much...

Sometimes I'm soo afraid of seeing the future... what if this is the best time I am ever gonna have... like this is it... but then I become scared that I didn't do enough... I could have spent the time better... but then it's gone... gone forever...

But something I can agree is that every good time spent passes so fast while the tough times doesn't even pass by...


? Question of the day:

Is there any memory which you wish you could just change and make it better if you were to get that chance ?

What was the memory ? And what would you change ?


Thanks to everyone who read all the way down and maybe did someone feel exactly the same as I feel...

The next post will come at Saturday 6 PM ! Until that stay tuned, take care and have a wonderful continuing afternoon !


/Simmi.

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​I wrote a story time in my last post were the title was "Friendship for life" and I asked you people If there really is something called that or If It's just about time and when everything changes ?


​The person we can laugh with, talk about anything, scream on without the person saying anything cause he/she knows how you are feeling or just the person whom you spend your sphere time with is called BEST FRIEND...

There is always someone whom you always feel extra comfortable with... It doesn't always have to be someone reading in your school with you, it can be the friend whom you just feel to run to after school cause you have soo much to tell about the day... 

Friendship can't be scaled in size neither weighted .... And in my opinion there is always someone whom you always miss even when you are outside doing something very funny, because that person is missing...

Friendship exists... It does... But that doesn't mean that it's always the same person throughout life, or It always has to be a girl, friendship is friendship....

(​Make sure you comment your answer down below and like !)


/Simmi.


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"When everything is supposed to be perfect ?"

Hi Brothers and Sisters and welcome to my blog again !


On last week at Saturday we went on a trip to Dalarna (a place in Sweden) to just spend some family time i guess although I'm not a "family trip type of person" mostly maybe because it feels like we actually behave good with each other just because we are on a trip and we are supposed to be that "best family or dream family" which is on a trip just to show people, and at home we don't even talk with each other properly except for if anyone of us badly needs something which the other one has and you need to communicate... (or rather start buttering...)

That is the only exception....

But I guess the time we spent was fine anyways because I was getting bored at home and every Summer I have a habit of doing something as that is the time when everything actually is happening...

But this Summer became an exception for many reasons... I honestly didn't want to go because I just wanted to spend some time alone and I would be more happy if just they were to go on that trip and I could stay at home...

Anyways, Is it just me or you know when your other family members, cousins or just guests appear at your house and your parents start talking with them, deep conversations and stuff and then suddenly your mom or dad needs something which is at the other side of the table were you are sitting and they say: "my baby,my angel or something which is faaaaaaaar away from the usual they call you, and you be like: "Huh, are you talking with me?" and to be sure that they are talking with you, you just turn around to be sure...

And when you do that everyone one looks at you specially your parents with an angry look... and then you start to talk with yourself inside your brain and you ask yourself what wrong you did....?

Like excuse me that my parents behave a bit awkward when you people appear?!

That's not the worse, because the worse thing is when the guests who did come have a daughter / son with them who has the same age as you or even worse if younger...

Because we teenagers have such an awesome brain because we never help at home not even if your mom is standing there screaming but we do it when we are at someone else home because we need to show how "helpful" and "good" we are you know... and when that happens my mom of course notices the help she gets and praises ...

But the worse thing happens when everyone leave because she starts to taunt you that you don't help and that son/daughter of her friend or whatever is so good and so helpful, and you be like... REALLY ....

Like who doesn't apply that technique when you go somewhere and need to kinda impress ?!!

Anyways, enough of random topics and let's move on to the story time ! 😄

"A small piece of my life"- Friendship for life 


I still remember that day when I saw her standing with my class mate from my previous school which at that time used to be my best friend, my first real friend or at least what I thought at that time...

Starting from the beginning,,, when I was 6 years and was in day care I had a friend which I always used to sit beside and play with but when I changed my school in class 2 we became separated...

I shifted house and school of course were I found new friends.

But one day when I was standing at the balcony on a sunny day I guess and was just standing there looking out, I saw my best friend and and became surprised and so I called her name out loud and ran down the stairs... were I found her standing with another girl which I had seen several times, maybe did she live in the same building I though but I didn't care so much at that moment and instead gave my friend a hug and started talking, we started looking back at memories from before and the other girl was all feeling awkward and uncomfortable I guess as she didn't have any clue of what we were talking about, and we totally understood her and so we stopped talking about it and I got introduced with the new girl...

I left soon from there as mom told me to go up fast and so I did that but after that we never really felt the same with each other, I guess we just had grown apart ... time just filled that space and made us apart

But after that day me and that other girl started to be with each other more and we came to visit each other, play and just spend more time and whenever we were free we used to hang out...

That girl is today my best friend and we have been friends for 8 years now... and she made me realize that faith can turn around everything in just a moment and that everything happens for a reason...

Thanks to her I'm still standing stable and I still bother to live, and I honestly don't wanna know what would have happened If I was to never meet her...


? Questione of the day:

Look at my title ("Friendship for life") and take some minutes to think if there is really is such thing called friendship for life ? (Comment below)


Thanks to those who took their time and read all the way down, if possible please take some more time to comment, like and follow (I would be very happy to both know your opinion and happy that you follow me)

And the next post is coming on next Saturday at 6 PM so until that stay tuned for the Q/A and "The outfit of the day", take care and have a nice day ahead (although I know it's raining and not the best weather...) 😊

(P.S I know that I'm uploading the post earlier because I might not be at home and so I'm doing it now !)

/Simmi.

Was listening to this song while writing... 😌

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Have you ever just choosed to not help someone in any case ? And what was the consequences ?

Honestly no, I have never intentionally choosed to not help someone, there are many cases where a complete stranger to me needs help and I somehow feel that I HAVE TOO help because I somehow manage to feel guilty inside if I don't help and that is something which at least I can't live with.... GUILTYNESS...


(Comment your answer too 😊!!)

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Hi Brothers and Sisters !

As you know, I post a question of the day on every post and so now I decided to post my answer to that question also so people know how I think in some cases...

It's a way of getting to know me better 😊

But my answer will come the day after I post the question , and It would be interesting if you people could comment your answers too, so take some time after reading to answer the question !


Until that take care, stay tuned and have a nice day/evening/night!


/Simmi.

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Two options , one choice...


Hi Brothers and Sisters and welcome back to my blog !

(If you are new to my blog then welcome, and make sure to subscribe, follow and like !)



This week was "great" until today when the grades came... Ish how one result can change a great day to the most awful day you have ever had....

Although the school did some mistakes in my grades and so I had to go back, change my grades and print it out again...

It's wonderful how one mistake can ruin soo much !!! And what's more fascinating is that It doesn't matter if the mistake was intentional or not...

It's like an intentional mistake is worth 10 slaps and an unintentional is worth the double because somehow the other person finds it intentional anyways, so never say : "I promise It wasn't meant to happen" cause they will take it as "Yes I did it, and I don't give a shit..." It's called mind fuck translator !

Anyways, before my grades came we had decided that we were supposed to leave for Dalarna (a place in Sweden) for some family time as we have not have one so-called family time in almost 2 years now...

And so we are leaving tomorrow, and I hope I will be able to escape mom's scary eyes and her killing eye contacts ...

(I'm writing this on the day before we are supposed to leave as I can't write It tomorrow so I will publish it today cause if I tomorrow by any chance cannot do it then it will get delayed, so better earlier than late ig)

I guess the worst thing which can happen is that she will talk about my grades the whole way...

(Not the best experience thou)


(Shifting to another topic...)


I'm starting to not like people who say : "But I had no other choice..." like what do you mean by that ??

Not choosing something is also a choice ?!

It's like seeing someone kill another person and not prevent the person from doing it plus not helping the person who is injured, and you didn't help the person because you didn't want to go through too much "problem" plus you didn't call because you didn't wanna waste money and so when the police arrives and investigates they asks you why you didn't at least make a call ? And you be like: "Because I had no choice and I was panicked."

Panicked ?! No choice !??? Well dear you had three clear options, and you were supposed to choose one!

Option no.1 : Help the person

Option no.2 : Call the police

And option no.3 which no one counts as an option ?: Doing absolutely nothing.......

AND YOU CHOOSED OPTION 3 ! THAT IS ALSO AN OPTION !

We don't count it as an option because we wanna minus every situation which we actually were wrong and not just admit it... because that is the easiest way to escape... But what we don't understand is that we are actually escaping from ourselves... It's easy at the beginning because doing it sometimes is called "mistakes" but doing something twice is called choosing !

And some people don't get that, because they do the "mistakes" again and again because they never learn.

Doing a mistake the first time is called learning, doing it twice is called repetition (but not a good one thou)


# Advice no.8: Do something which you don't wanna do and regret later, rather than not doing and regretting it !'


(The advice is a sneak peak of the topic I will be talking about next Saturday 😉)

By the way, as this is Day 19 it means that next Saturday there will be Day 20 which means a story time !!!

And it also means extra writing plus extra thinking.... (The moment when you are trying to remember some moments but it's all BLANK!!!)


? Question of the day :

Have you ever just choosed to do nothing when you knew inside that you could ?

What was the consequences ?


That was everything for this Saturday ! Thanks to those who read all the way down, and welcome every new reader to my blog! If you found this one interesting then you can go back and read from Day 1 !

And please make sure to like, comment and follow ! The next post in coming next Saturday @ 6PM, SO BE BACK :) Until that take care, stay tuned and have a nice day ahead...


/Simmi.


Was listening to this song while writing... 😌

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Love , Trust and Destiny....

Hi Brothers and Sisters, and welcome back to my blog !

I was supposed to write yesterday but as I came home at 23.30 after the prom I really couldn't...


The prom yesterday was good... but I would not regret If I was to not go...

The school is over tomorrow and then comes the "awesome" summer !

Nothing feels good right now... I have always been one of them whom if someone asks would you prefer to forget your past or see the future, I always say: "See the future", but now I'm soo afraid of it... this year will be the worst year of my life... (Ik you are probably thinking what I'm talking about ...)

In the last post (An update) I mentioned about love... Love is very powerful depending on how you see it...

It can either be your strength, weakness or both depending on situations...

Before when I was in fifth grade and saw my seniors and how they used to go around with their boyfriend or girlfriend I never really understood what love was ... what I mean is that I knew what is what but the whole feeling was unknown to me...

Now when I look back I just wish It had remained unknown to me...

Love is a very beautiful feeling but what's even more important is trust in love and in each other, If there is no trust in a relation then there's no purpose in continuing...

Another thing is distance in love.... long or short distance doesn't matter, every distance hurts...

But here comes a true fact about distant love. When a couple who loves each other very much and the other one has to move for some reason it hurts... very much... but then you try to control yourself and just think in another way that maybe the distance between will make the love stronger and stuff, and then you talk about this matter with your boyfriend and explain and try to make this situation "less" painful, but it just ends up more painful... because your boyfriend is claiming that he doesn't believe in the fact that distance makes love stronger and that it's the opposite, here comes the first difference between boys and girls... and day by day you get a feeling that he can live without you when you are literally dying to just hold him tight and cry and just say "Don't leave me..."

But then he starts to call you desperate... desperate for what !? For you ? And there somewhere you start to wonder how the word love suddenly changed to desperate... It hurts... and what you are more afraid of is losing that person...

The person you had shared your happiness with, your sadness and all the other moments which you remember and when that person turns out to be a stranger....


I'm a type of person which loves the people through out my life whether I say it or not but I will always be there... And I never realized what true love was until now and according to me It's not important to stay together with the one you love, what's more important is that I love the person the same throughout my whole life... Yes I'm a loyal bitch, and I can hate It sometimes because some people uses your loyalty against you and it turns out to be your weakness which is totally not good...


? Question of the day:

Would you choose to marry someone who you love very much but doesn't love you or marry someone who loves you very much but you don't love him/her ? Explain why.



Thanks to them who read all the way down, and if you are new to my blog please subscribe !

The next post is coming on Saturday at 6 PM, until that stay tuned, take care and have a nice day ahead !!!


/Simmi.



WAIT!! Don't leave yet !!!

Below are some pictures from the prom yesterday... I don't have the pictures so it's just a few... :(

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Ideas, Brainstorming and wandering through the flood of memories...

Hi Brothers and Sisters, and welcome back to my blog again...


I'm very sorry that I have been very bad at updating... But let's just say that I am in my tough periods of life where I don't know what to do so I just spend my days watching videos on Youtube to pass the time...

(That is what you do when you don't have anything to do and you want to distract your emotions so that you don't suffer from a mental break down...)


I'm nowadays seeing so many live examples of how people just move on and are ready to forget everything... it could be bad memories or good but they still just forget... And here comes little I, me and myself who even today say thanks to people who had done a big favor for me like 2 years back .... (Just a round of applause guys👏)

Anyways, that is not what I wanted to say... It's just that sometimes you can't see someone just move on right in front of your eyes... not because you are evil but because you don't wanna let them just go away... specially when it is about love... Love is very sensitive but also the best feeling and so when someone you love leaves you or is going to leave you everything feels like a dream... but not a good one... more like a nightmare...


So I'm making some changes...

I'm just gonna upload ones a week now on wards , on every saturday at 6 PM... So to make it fair I will upload Day 18 tomorrow as Saturday already passed by and then the schedule will go as normal (every Saturday at 6 PM)

Any topic ideas please message me!

Snapchat: simmi_diya256

Instagram: simmi_diya256

Email: simmi-00@hotmail.com


Until that stay tuned, take care and have a nice evening ahead !


/Simmi.


A sneak peak of my prom look tomorrow...

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When the mirror shows you a reflection of yourself which you don't recognize...

Hi Brothers and Sisters and welcome back to my blog !

The post is late today I know but I had my sister to take care of so had to be with her , better late than never ig!


Anyways, the weather today was extremely hot.... as if the sun was taking revenge on me !

Last night I had a dream where I was standing completely alone at the middle of nowhere, or at least not a place which I recognize... and then there started coming many people, first people I don't know and then people which are near to my heart but no one looked at me...as if they could not see me...they just passed by !

And when I woke up at 00.47 at night because of the dream I saw, I found myself crying...

The night was terrible.... after the dream I just could not sleep and so I decided to listen to music... I went to sleep at 5 or 6 I don't remember but when I heard someone go out.


Sometimes we people only realize when something happens which forces us to in some way realize or regret...

Another thing which I have noticed while talking with other people is how fast we actually manage to judge someone without actually trying to know that person...

If we would use the time we talk about someone and instead try to know him/her I think we would change our opinion... But we just choose the easy way because we don't have that courage to represent ourselves because we think too much about what people think about us or what people have said about me or that person...

The social medias nowadays have made us teenagers so lazy in many ways... like dating someone over internet , talking with each other openly and then when you suddenly decide to meet it feels like you don't even know each other ....

Another situation is when you tell someone that you love her/him over snapchat or messanger for the first time but then when you meet at school face to face you feel "embarrassing" to say the same three so-called magical words.. Like do I even know you anymore !?

The third thing is when you do shopping.... 

As far as I know when I was 10 or 11 when I used to get money, I used to run to the markets to buy new things... but now when you get money you don't even move from the spot, because instead of running you just take your phone and make it a shopping cart for online shopping...... awesome so that means less hanging out with friends and going out for shopping and more just sitting and ordering what you want shipped to your home , just a round of applause to the people who managed to make us more lazy than we actually are 👏



​Question of the day:

How many times have you actually lied to someone and felt bad about it ? Have you ever lied to someone and enjoyed it, if yes then why ?


​That was everything for today, I know that it was less than usual but as I said I was with my sister and I'm very tired now so needed to round off.

So Thanks to everyone who read all the way down, the next post is coming tomorrow at 5 Pm (If my mom doesn't decide to send me for adventures, not good ones though...) and until that stay tuned , take care and have a nice evening ahead !


/Simmi.


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