A clear memory still remains with me, sitting in the Auckland airport waiting to take on my next adventure and all the future possibilities rushing through my mind. So much excitement i could have exploded! I knew I would miss my friends and family but what did I have to lose!? That chapter in life was finished and better things were calling and awaiting me. I always been one with itchy feed for adventure and to be outside so the idea of Canada was perfect! I can't recall at all been any bit nervous either. I was so keen to get on that plane as I could tell this was the right thing! I was going to discover my self, life and open my eyes to the world. I knew from then this wasn't some silly soul search but rather a way to build on who I really am and explore the world, to see what's really out there for me.
Since moving abroad over a year ago I have found my self flooded with willingness to be more open minded and to many different ways of life. It's safe to say travel has helped me grow and pressure my passion to explore and see all variations of the world and life. I have learnt so much importance to life in such a short amount of time that no school, lecture or parent could ever teach! I guess what I'm trying to describe is a indescribable feeling that you don't really understand till you set your self free to explore. I have learnt to be my own individual, and learnt sensitivity ( sounds silly but it's true when brought up on a typical kiwi farm) , I have learnt to stand up for my self, to appreciate , to be ambitious, to be strong and courageous and to take chances. Because travel has taught me that I want to live. Live a full life.
It still confuses me though when you cross that one person that always asks " what do I want to do in the future?" I guess it bugs me cause it's reality and I'm still caught up in my passion to travel . I constantly want to reply with explore as I have no desire to settle. Although I know this is something I really need to face, I know I'm not ready to face it yet! I want to do what I want to do. This adventure is still young and working a proper job or sitting behind a desk really isn't even in the question! But when the time is right I feel I will know the answer.
Going back as young as I can remember, I always recall life appearing scary without a plan or some thought or idea. But since boarding that plane and becoming open to new things again travel has taught me another different life skill. That a plan isn't always required. Sometimes it's easier and a better adventure awaits if you just let go and follow the wind. You may not see it in the present time but let go have faith and see what happens, because right now you are where you need to be, and the best experience can not be planed. Take the risk and have no regrets! Because a story is an experience and an experience is living! It may be scary and it may be hard but it always ends up the way it should. Now that I have learnt to let go, breath and see what happens I find it hard to ever make a plan as I enjoy the mystery and all the endless possibilities I'll get to experience.
The world is so big, so complex and so much I want to see and experience !!
Now that I have started the travel bug I just can't imagine stopping, and am not yet ready or willing. It has definitely sparked my desire to explore and see the world, to experience different ways of living. To meet different people and hear different stories. To make friends, too love, to cry, to enjoy, to learn, to fail , to try again, to achieve, to be happy and most importantly to be me! The travel bug teaches you too live and teaches you life and the heart felt aspects of humanity.
This adventure has definitely surrounded me with wonderful people who have founded the same happiness, passion and success all from travel. All from getting on a plane and thanking that chance. It's such beautiful vibes.
I can definitely say travel is humbling. And because of this growing desire to travel right now a career doesn't even make the first page. It sounds a bit childish I know but I'm 100% set on living! Travel has shown me the world is beautiful in many different ways , fun, scary, loving, heartbreaking and can hurt. But that's life. Make the most of it, get up and personal because other things will soon become so much more important in life.
"The world is big with endless number of ways to live in it, and try as we might to set up cultural norms, beliefs and expectations their aren't really any rules."
So I encourage you to travel, to explore and to live a life with zero regrets because sometimes you win, sometimes you learn. But it's all an experience and contributes too a story and too you. Don't be scared. Take the chance