Today’s blog is about something that I have been going through ever since middle school and I have finally managed to let myself change that. I am writing this because I know that there are a lot of people who feel the need to hide or behave differently when they are interacting and/or they would just feel extremely uncomfortable about their looks, posture, and every little thing. And that is exactly how I used to feel. I hated looking at myself in the mirror, I hated my skin, my face, and blemishes. I hated my body, my voice, my hair, and everything about me. I would look at other girls and think “Why can’t I look like them? Why am I so atrociously ugly?” I never got out of the house without putting on makeup, I made sure I walk properly, I made sure I don’t look awkward while eating outside, I tried to act like someone other than my own self, but now… I’ve finally changed.
I started to accept the fact that the way I look and the way I act makes me who I am. It makes me different from others. I don’t live to please others or do what they want me to do; People are not in control of me, so, I should do things to keep my own self-happy, pleased, and proud. Now, when I look in the mirror, I don’t see a girl who's trapped in the society, I don’t see fakeness, I don’t see ugliness anymore. I see a bright future, I see someone who's ready to tackle the challenges, who’s ready to “flex of them haters😉”. I see my true self, I see my flaws and I appreciate them, you know why? Because that's what makes me unique.
However, I admit I don’t always see myself and think positively. There are days when I don’t feel loved, I feel alone and those are the days that pushes me towards the black hole of amxiety and depression but I pick myself up everytime and give myself a motivational speech, no matter how long it takes for me to overcome the sadness and I encourage you to do the same because at the end of the day all we want is to be happy, feel loved and enjoy as much as we can.
You need to learn to love yourself and once you do, the negative comments and the negative people won’t matter anymore. You will begin to teach others to love. You will become the positive force for yourself and for the people around you.
Let's beat down insecurities together!!