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Today I turn 19 years-old, not that special age but I love my birthdays anyway. A whole day just for me.I'm on my way to brinch with Roz and Delwin but I'll post more about it tomorrow. Yesterday Rande, Naze, Avin, Narin, Melek and Sara was at our house. Melek really wanted to bake and Sara wanted to help as you can see haha.Cutest photo ever!

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With the greyish weather the music gets a little more chilled out too. I've started listening a lot to this artist called Mura Masa. My favorite has to be the one he did ft Asap Rocky... that's something I never thought I would say. That's all I did yesterday, search music and worked (the last pic). Today I have to start cleaning my room and all that boring sh**. Then I'm heading to the grocery store because tomorrow's my birthday! So I have to prep and make sure everything's ready. I love my birthday because it's one day where I get to choose everything the way I want it. being a controlling perfectionist it gives me a sense of pleasure and calms me down. I sound manic now I know but I swear I'm not haha.

The last couple of days I've also for some reason have had more connection with people (someone) I lost it with for some years! Is it something in the air? When I ask that, I mean besides christmas. Why are people just now picking up contact? What happened? For two years we were gone and now all of a sudden, without me initiating anything the contact is restored. It's so funny to me what some people think is casual, and someone else it's nerve racking. I'm not saying that I don't appreciate it because I do, it actually made me happy. It's just that for two years I wouldn't dear to pick up contact because I'd thought the person would question me and think it's weird. Somethings I think is normal a lot of my friends think is nerv racking. Ofcourse it has to do with self-perception but that makes it all more interesting. Why am I embarrassed to pick up contact again after two-years when the other person finds it completely normal? What does that say about how I perceive myself? The most important question is how did I go from writing about my birthday and music to this? Hhahaha

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Friday

I know I'm switching languages and it's annoying but I think I'm sticking to English now. My weekend has been packed and so my thoughts have just been occupied. On Friday we celebrated dearest Alexandra (two weeks late). The crazy murderer you see in the picture is Alexandra haha. The only candle we found was a one so she turned one year old haha. Anyway, it was a perfect night just catching up with the old crew from school. We ate a lovley chocolate mousse cake, made pizza and danced a lot to Shawn Mendes. There's was a lot of giggling, confessing and loudness going on until 6am. We all slept there and so no everyone was just carefree and honestly, I haven't laughed until I cried for a very long time but that night I did multiple times. I woke up and fell asleep several times the day after which kinda woke Alexandra sleeping next to me. Once she woke herself up in the oddest way. She was laughing, so I thought she saw something funny on her phone. As it turns out, she woke herself up from laughing at something that happened IN HER DREAM. Hahaha who does that? Happy belated Birthday weirdo. <3

Saturday

As I said I woke up and fell asleep several times that day. I ended up just singing high school musical songs to Alexandra in bed haha. When everyone woke up they had a little breakfast and went home. Me, Sabina and Alexandra however went to a restaurant we usually go to when we hang out in Alexandra´s dad´s apparment. Me and Alexandra ate kebeb with fries for breakfast haha because it's the best kind. Afterwards I went home and realized I was locked out. So I went to Sussi´s house grabbed a bunch of makeup things and walked to Ping´s house. Sussi, Ping and her friend Jennifer was going to a bal arranged by their university (KTH). So I did Sussis makeup and they did their hair and we basically had the most girly time. They went to the bal and I just went home and slept for HOURS. Oh how I missed sleeping. I took one pic of Ping and Jennifer so I asked Sussi for one and she only had a bathroom slefie one haha. They're we're gorgeous! Pings dress was all sequon and the back was backless with the straps crossing. That dress is on my mind haha love it.

Sunday

Today I met the crew from my old class. Daniel, Scott, David, Jonas and Ping ofcourse. We ate in a really interesting cozy thai restaurant. They have fairy lights EVERYWHERE and fake jungle plants and some real plants. They also had like a tiny river thing with actual fish in it. It was so nice to just catch upa nd talk. I haven't seen Scott and Daniel in 6 months!!! I came home and Lara and Honer had bought me a birthday present from my fave store (& other stories is what it's called). It was a gorgeous little black bag with silver/metal details. Most convient thing ever because my litle everyday bag just broke. Thank you guys! On Wednesday little me turns 19. The last year of being a teen.

That was my weekend. Nothing super interesting or so to write about but that's because I haven't really been focused on anything else. It honestly feels good.

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Uppdate: Det ärmest bara jobb och födelsedagar. Alexandra ska firas på fredag, jag på onsdag, jag och Delwin på torsdag och sen Delwin för sig igen sen fyller Honer (min andra bror) år på fredagen. Högskole antagningen kommer ungefär då också. Jag har iallafall mycket att se fram emot. Har även shoppat en del på sistonde. Oh och firat Mariana, hon smsa mig och vi drog och käka tårtbitar och hade det sjukt mysigt. Jag och tårta är en perfekt kombination.

Gilmore GIrls Revival: ....jag har inte gjort ett inlägg på evigheter men jag har nästan inte lust eller tid längre. Jag har börjat jobba för fullt och kommer hem på kvällen och då vill jag oftast bara sova så fort som möjligt. Förra fredagen var det iallafall dags för GILMORE GIRLS REVIVAL! Det är en av mina absoluta favorit serier någonsin. Jag har sett om serien ett antal gånger. Den avslutades 2007 och var på repris på kanal 5 flera år efter. Tolv år senare släpper Netflix 4 två-timmar långa avsniitt för att visa vad som hänt med Lorelai, Rory och Emily. Det var så sjukt bra och jag kan inte vara glad nog. Eller jo om allt hade gått som jag ville haha. Jag gillar ändå (spoiler) att nästan ingen av dem levade exakt lyckliga i alla sina dagar som det första slutet fick oss att tro. Orginala skaparen hoppade av säsong sju då år 2007 så vi fick aldrig veta hur det skulle ha slutat. Det var även fyra ord som skrevs innan serien säsong ett var färdig skriven som vi aldrig fick höra för än nu. TOLV ÅR!

MMA EM: Samma dag var det EM i MMA i Prag. Både Hoger (min bror) och Rostem (min honarary bror) deltog. Jag mamma och pappa satt och livestrema. Min mammma var helt hysterisk. Hoger vann brons i sista ronden, då det var ganska lika, satt mamma och skrek. Sedan när Rostem körde och vann skrek mamma "BRA ROSTEM HÄMNAS HOGER". Jag försökte förklara att det inte är så det fungerar och att det inte ens är samma person som kör matchen. Fast hon ville inte lyssna så aja. Rostem vann guld och det är vi otroligt stolta över! Grattis Rostem!!

Angående förra inlägget: Så ångrade jag mig DIREKT efter att jag gjorde inlägget haha som jag sa att jag skulle. Jag skulle inte alls rösta på Hillary heller, kanske läst på och protest röstat? Låt oss bara säga att det här är första gången jag är glad över att inte kunna rösta i USAs val.

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Jag har nu inte gjort ett inlägg på ett tag igen utav lathet och ja nu så pendlar jag mellan språk. Förlåt jag har inte bestämt mig än.

Snabb uppdate på livet: Livet rullar på och inget speciellt har hänt än. Jag började jobba idag, var på fest i fredags, Cani åkte hem i lördags, jag och pappa handlade på ICA med BARA mynt och sen så prokrastinerar jag att städa rum och köra risk tvåan. Normala 18 åring saker bara.

Valet i USA, om jag var medborgare i USA: NU till något viktigare jag vill uppmärksamma men inte alls prata långt om. Valet är slut om några timmar och jag har inte skrivit ett enda skit om det här. Här är anledningen: JAG ÄR INTE EN SUPPORTER AV NÅGON AV KANDIDATERNA. Trots att jag har blivit överlycklig av idén av en kvinna som styr en av världens mäktigaste länder, så tänker jag inte alls ljuga, jag stödjer inte Hillary. Jag började tänka på vem jag skulle röstat på för det gör jag varenda år, även i svenska valet. Vare sig om du vill det eller inte är USA en av världens främsta länder och det är lika mycket vårt problem som deras (kanske inte lika men ni fattar). Det finns ju två andra typ "sido-kandidater" om det är vad man kan kalla dem? Heter det protest nånting..? Hehe jag vet inte. Men ska man tänka realistiskt spelar ju det inte så mycket roll. Vi alla vet att det är antingen Trump eller Clinton som kommer att vinna, det blir alltså en bortkastad röst. Nu skriver jag dock hur jag tänker kring hur jag hade röstat, så om du känner att Jill Stein eller Gary Johnson hade "float your boat" så är det upp till dig. Så hade jag vart en Amerikansk medborgare hade Hillary Clinton fått min röst. *gasp* du sa ju precis att du inte supporta henne! Det här kommer låta skit dumt och ignorant av mig så förlåt.. men hellre henne. Det är så det har blivit till "hellre den ena än den andra" och inte "hon har bra och smarta idéer". Jag kommer säkert kolla tillbaka på det här inlägget och ångra mig hahaha.

Borde man rösta bara för att man kan? Det var bara det första sen har jag också tänkt på hur mycket makt USA har och hur sammanflätande de är med resten av världen men ändå har vi ingen påverkan. Den sista tanken, eller- sista jag kommer att skriva är vem borde rösta? Jag såg en video, som jag kan länka i inlägget, där en kille prata om hur de flesta som röstar läser sig inte in på vad kandidaterna står för och därför borde inte alla rösta. Vi får höra mycket om hur viktigt det är för att du som en medborgare av ett demokratiskt styre har en chans att påverka (which I find BS at this point, don't kill me). Även om han hade en poäng, de flesta som röstar har ingen jäkla aning om vad som pågår. Now don't get me wrong, bara för att du har en poäng betyder inte att du har rätt. Har du en chans att vara en av dem som väljer den politiska ledning som ska styra så är det viktigt att du EN gång VAR FJÄRDE ÅR tar din ignoranta röv till google, klickar lite bokstäver här och där, läser lite här och där, får en uppfattning för människor kan skapa åsikter och sen tar din röv och går och röstar. Det är hur enkelt som helst att ta till sig information nu för tiden och att rösta är en av de viktigaste sakerna vi kan göra för samhället vi lever i. Det finns idioter överallt de kommer inte stanna hemma bara för att någon personligen tycker att de borde det. Fast iförsig så kommer inte folk att läsa sig in på politik även om det är bara en gång var fjärde år. Det gäller alla länder med demokrati, inte bara USA. Om någon har en annan åsikt och håller med killen i videon för ni gärna skriva till mig för jag vill höra :).

"Jag tänker inte rösta när jag blir äldre, jag vet inte vad nånting är" - Fener 2014. Vilken idiot man var vid 16.

video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x8QdCjH7GWQ

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I've wanted to do this post after I saw a youtuber who I respect do this. The only issue I have is that people are going to take it the wrong way. Especially since I've had insecurity issues in the past, so people who went through that with me might get worried but let me explain. I know some people are still not going to understand because telling yourself what's wrong with you is a sign of self hatred usually. For me it's different I absolutely LOVE myself just as I am insecurities and all. I don't mean that to sound cheesy but sometimes the truth is cheesy. I have so many incredible things about myself and that's why a "everything great about me" is coming shortly after. The point of this is to point out self awareness in myself. I have great attributes but I will not neglect the negative ones. Just as the positive, the negatives show you who you are and there's nothing wrong with that. Work on what you don't like but know and accept that some negatives are a given because you are human. So here's everything I find wrong or negative attributes about myself, according to myself.

1. I sleep too much or too little

2. I have the absolute WORST eating habits

3. This is a little same as the previous ones but sometimes I seriously forget to eat, not even joking

4. I can be too judgmental, too fast

5. I can't spell / I don't know how to use grammar in any of the three (kinda four) languages I know

6. I talk way too much about thing that don't matter

7. If I don't get my way I cry like a ten year-old

8. I can be quite self destructive even if nothing has happened

9. I am extremley picky with people

10. When I find people that suit me, I love way too fast (friendship way not other way)

11. A lot of times I am too proud to listen to others

12. I am way too obsessed with an idea I have of myself that I made when I was ten

13. I am concerned about everything

14. I fall to pieces extremely fast

15. I am extremly defensive

16. I either speak my mind too much or I say too little

17. I am way too passionate about everything I doI sleep too little

18. I was attracted to Cameron Dallas at one point 

19. I say I'm not a fangirl but I am a fangirl

20. I am diagnosed with panick-anxiety dissorder and at one point long ago with depression (not such a bad thing anymore because I doing hella fucking fine! Party!)

21. I am too afraid to do the wrong thing, it terrifies me

22. I am a perfectionist (that was so hard for me to spell haha)

23. I am nervous for anything new I do, no matter how small or big

24. I never think before I speak

25. I always think before I do

26. SOMETIMES I think I'm smarter than I actually am

27. And sometimes I am an idiot, I don't think, I know but a cute idiot hahaha

28. I laugh way to much at my own jokes

29. A little same as previous one but I always laugh at my own texts 

30. I sometimes don't give my dad enough credit and he deserves so much of it

31. I feel like I've missed an entire part of my youth because I've never been the rebellious type

32. I am super emotional

33. I give up easily, like right now

I could think of 33 things wrong with me at 18 years-old. Maybe I'll fill it out whenI remember things but next time it'll be more loooove in the air.

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Wedding

I tried to rhyme in the titel but it made little sence haha, don't judge me I'm not a poet! My cousins daughter got married on saturday so we went there to celebrate it. I swear to GOD every time I'm at a wedding, (wich is like six times a year because I'm Kurdish) I keep thinking my family/relatives can NOT get weirder and yet they do. We keep getting older and weirder. I don't mean this in a negative way though haha, they're lovley people and so much fun but yet so odd, but lets be honest odd is ALWAYS more fun and interesting. I guess I'm just as odd and weird haha, couldn't had asked for a more wonderful group of people. Here's a few blurry half-ass pictures from Asmar and David's wedding. Despite getting menstrual cramps in the car on my way to the wedding and my sistah Cani being sick, it was so fun. Thank you for letting us be a part of it, wish them all the best.

Halloween

Theese pics aren't edited the same but i seriously have no energy for editing right now so here you go some collected pictures from halloween things. I say things becasue the two black/white photos are not from the same day as the other ones haha. First time I tried to face-paint and I was quite happy to be honest haha. The black/white ones were TERRIBLE however, if there's anything instagram has thaught me is that you can always trick people with a filter. Thoose were with whatever makeup I had infront of me and the chesire cat one was legit face-paint. For thoose who did not understand chesire cat is the creepy cat from Alice in Wonderland that disappears into thin air. I love facepaints you can still were whatever you want, and for me it was ofcourse black long-sleeve, black jeans and a steele choker.  Karen and Moa  was uhm Mexican skull? Sugar skull? I don't want to be wrong I'm afraid people will get offended because in 2016 everyone and their pets are extremly political correct so sorry in advance. Anywayyyyy they looked absolutley incredable and they colour cordinated wich was cute. Adam as you can see was a grey skull and then took it off haha.

Sidenote: A guy thaught I was dressed as Harley Quinn..... I was wearing cat ears.

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I feel like I don't have a reason to go home. I seriously don't want to go home yet haha. I spent three days with Sipel (my little cousin with iceblue eyes). I put her photos on snapchat and people went crazy about her eyes hahahaha. Good thing she has siblings and cousins that will keep them disgusting boys away from her when she gets older. I got braids and she wanted them too, if I sat somewhere she said my name and sat next to me. It made me happy because children usually hate me hahaha no joke.

Now I've been to Zaandam too, we went and saw the weird houses, it reminds me of cat in the hat movie. Then we moved on to Amsterdam and went to a big building they just finnished building. It's called Adam lookout I think, and it's basically just a sightseeing place. The Elevators was flashing lights and music, amazing views everywhere, food and art and a swing over the city of Amsterdam. Me and Souzdar went in and we now have a name for our band we created in Turkey in July it's called Fensouz hahaha.

We've said goodbye to the fam and now we're leaving but we're comming back aoon ofcourse so it's all good.

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