MORE PICTURES WILL BE UPLOADED SOON!!! MY WIFI SUCKS OVER HERE! Haha
Day 3 in Sri Lanka and Ive never experienced wifi this bad before??? Oh, btw seems like Im gonna blog in english, after request. Challenge accepted! Cuz it surely is a challenge, how could I possible express the same emotions and thoughts I usually do? Well I obviously don’t find it hard expressing my personality/identity by speaking english but this is different, I reckon. On a platform where I always share my deepest thoughts and feelings, with a bit of humour. Ahhhh, we’ll see… I’M EXCITED!
Where were we... oh.
..Day 3 and Im sipping on a coffee in a little town called Ella (pronunciation: Elle??? WEIRD!). I finally got my morning coffee - it’s 2 o’clock in the afternoon… And Im ready for some serious blogging! So, let’s start from when I left Aus. Oh yeah. I left Australia, most of you don’t know. I haven’t been very active here lately.. And forgot to mention that part. Sorry!! So let’s go back to yesterday instead, when I met two german guys. We met by the big white buddha in sunset (how romantic is that?? I thought they were a couple but apparently not… shame) and grabbed the same tuktuk back downtown. Turned out we were gonna go to the same place, tooth temple, where they have a tooth of buddha??? (how cool????).. we basically spent the whole evening together and also met up for dinner later that night on a rooftop bar/restaurant overlooking the lake in Kandy. And just before we were gonna leave we got into this really interesting conversation about special moments. Like… when did you last have that moment? When everything around you stands still and all there is is you, your thoughts and your emotions. You know.. When you’re coming up with all these different conclusions about life and realise how lucky you are. Do you guys know what I mean?? Like come on, we all have those moments sometimes. And during that conversation it hit me, Ive had one of those moments just 5 mins before I was gonna leave Aus, when everything (!!!) (within like 30 sec) just got back to me and I was filled with all these different emotions and feelings and ahhh I can’t even explain what I felt in that moment, and I don’t have to either. I honestly don’t know what I felt and actually I don’t have to know that, all I knew was that I was, and is, extremely thankful for everything that happened to me this year. Every moment. Ive been through ups and downs, obviously, and Ive experienced things I never thought I was gonna experience. Ive realised so many things (Kylie Jenner - ”realising things….” haha lol) but honestly words can’t explain!!!! I do have a note from that moment tho, cuz whenever I get clarity about things I try to write it all down.
”Still on Australian soil, leaving within 5 minutes. Wow all these memories - what a year!!!!! Travelling really puts things in perspective, makes you humble and kind, open minded and definitely less judgy. We’re all the same, striving for the same thing, we just have different ways of doing it. I honestly can’t believe Im leaving, leaving it all behind. Im beyond thankful for everything Aus gave me.”
What a moment. Yet I don’t think I realised that I actually was leaving at that point cuz it was not until 6 hours later in the air that I had a serious breakdown!!?! I cried my eyes out and found myself having another moment. A moment of sadness rather than gratefulness and happiness. I realised my journey in Australia actually had come to an end. I mean. I was still living the Aus lifestyle and although I lived a completely different life from when we were ”vanpackers” my australian adventure was still going. Now when I left it was all just memories, I was not living it anymore. Just memories - fading away. And eventually the only proof that all of this actually happened is the people I met, and especially Mack since he made me feel something different. And yup I do have a note from that moment too.
”6 hours in the air, 6 hours away from Aus and Im crying my eyes out. I can’t deal with the fact that Im going home soon, Im freaking out and can’t thinking of anything else than just staying inside, in my house, isolated from whats around. Im panicking cuz I don’t want this, I don’t want my adventure to end and although I know this will still be a personal journey, and therefore the right decision to make, it still feels like Im taking 10 steps back. Its like time travelling - I’ll go back to who and what I was before I left. It’s gonna feel like aus never happened, everything was a dream I just woke up from right? What I saw, the people I met. Just a dream, too good to be true. Everything at home stayed the same, Im sure. Time stood still and well I cant go back to that. The only person who proves that all this actually happened is Mack and all want is to him to come and see me at home, thatll make home feel good again, like it’s a part of everything that happened this year. I just cant see myself leaving the house atm, it’ll take a lot of courage to do that but I know I’ll be good eventually. I dont even want to see my friends, everything that happened before this year feels like another decade, like it happened to a person who doesnt exist anymore. It scares the heck out of me, sorry to say. and Mack is the only one who makes all real. He proves that everything that happened is real. Now it’s all just memories, fading”
Yup.. That’s how I felt in that moment. I do miss my friends but I think Id just need some time to process everything once I go home. I can’t even see myself grabbing the bus into town cuz just the idea of bumping in to someone freaks me out too. It’s all gonna be so shallow to start with, I don’t know if I could deal with that straight away. Just getting used of being home will take time, and Im gonna give it time. However Mack wrote me the best reply after Ive messaged him. Exactly what I needed to hear.
”Theres so much more proof than me!!! but thank you that sounds sweet ahaha but seriously you have such a positive energy that everyone you met will miss and remember so you need to know that you are going to be missed more than i can explain! and your adventure will never end!! part of the whole adventurer lifestyle is touching everyone that means the most to you and the fact that youre going home isnt the end, but its a way for you to show how living poorly yet being richer in experiences is what sets you apart from anyone else! dont feel sad but try to think about it as a way to go back out into the world! its very tough to only travel.. we need to rest our traveller hearts while we make money to pursue our passions. i know thats easy for me to just write but i want you to know that you wont be stuck once you go home!!!!!”
That made me realise going home won’t be THAT bad. I know I want to make a difference once I go home, and change things. I should bring home the things I learnt whilst being out travelling, make an impact. …And then get ready for the next adventure!
So. Why Sri Lanka? I always wanted to go! Basically cuz Ive always wanted to try out their yoga and surf. So theres where Im headed next, to a yoga- and surf camp down south! iiiihhhh
The food here is amazing btw, and the people are so nice. Cant deny I was a bit unsure about travelling the country alone at first, it’s close to India and for some reason I thought that could be a bit risky. But in fact, sri lanka is completely different and travelling alone definitely brings you closer to the locals. Ive had amazing conversations the past few days and Ive made so many new friends already! I went to Galle Face Green, my first night in Colombo, for sunset and I talked with all these different people. Also bought dinner to an old poor man and which put a big grin on his face. He owned nothing yet he shared his food with the birds - how incredible is that??? Also gave money to a bunch of other poor locals and payed a few for taking a photo of them. Talked to the richer people here too and came to realisation that we are all the same, like I said earlier.
Giving makes me so happy and it makes my soul feel good. Being generous is such a blessing and I always search for opportunities where I can give.
Now Im staying one night here in Ella and then off we go!!!!!! Sri lanka is beautiful! Cant wait to spend my days on the beach, wake up for yoga in the sunrise and meet new people! Well... In conclusion I guess I just love travelling.