Does lions breath scare away your inner demons? Does downward dog make you love dogs or maybe even turn you in to one? We've all heard of the power of yoga, but not even yoga can make the impossible possible.
I started doing yoga a couple of years ago, mostly for stretching in the beginning. I have since had breaks from yoga and periods of doing yoga every single day. But what I have come to realize is that yoga doesn't do much for me. It doesn't make me calmer, it doesn't open all my senses and I don't feel reborn.
Everyone I know praises yoga like it was the cure to all diseases. Honestly, I don't feel happier, I don't sleep better, I don't feel "aware" or open or energized and my creativity isn't flowing like a heavy period. So what am I doing wrong?
I mean, I must be doing something wrong, right? Or is yoga perhaps not suitable for everyone? I know everyone feels different and get different benefits from doing yoga, but not getting or feeling anything? That's kind of unfair.
Is my problem that my expectations are too high? THAT MUST BE IT! Or is it that simple?
I don't want to give up yoga because it has become a part of my morning routine and I'm too tired (due to the lack of sleep - that yoga doesn't help with) to exercise.
I guess my problems lay so deep that yoga can't reach it, like there is a big ass wall of shit, stress and more shit? But who am I to diagnose myself? I am my own worst doctor and therapist. Cheap but awful.
"Patience" - says the yoga guru. I am a patient person, I can wait.
Perhaps all I need to do is fake it till I make it! That works for people! I will become my own yogi and drink expensive organic smoothies and ginger shots from my local juice bar. I'll buy yoga wear from lulu lemon and other brands that will ruin my economy. I will spend hours upon hours in the kitchen to make buddha bowls with all organic, detoxing, soul-opening, fantastic, magical, yogi vegetables. I WILL BE MY OWN GURU.
Or maybe I'll just drink some tea and read a book? We'll see.