It hurt. Looking at him hurt. Everytime
my eyes landed on his perfect face, his perfect features, it hurt. It
hurt because he was my boyfriend and had been that for a year and a
half now. It hurt because I he would soon enough realize that he
could get anyone in a blink of an eye, anyone better than me. And
that scared me, knowing that he could suddenly just turn against me
and drop me like a water balloon on a hot summer day, except that was
for fun, this was not.
You're probaby wondering who the hell I am and who the hell I'm talking about. Well, I'm Melody Harver and
Nathaniel Fritz is the perfect guy I'm talking about, my well-known,
precious little boyfriend. We're both in high school, I'm turning 16
this year and he's already 17. Nate is the most popular guy at our
school. Every girl here drools over him whenever he walks by, even
the college girls in town knows who he is. Everyone loves him; he
plays football, basket at home, he's on the swimteam just for fun,
he's been homecoming king every year since he got here, and he has a
thing for charity. And there you have the perfect guy.
But me? I'm
not even popular. Nobody except my best friend, Adam Hunter, knew
my name before Nate started talking to me. Only two years ago, I was
a fat, little brat with braces and just Adam as my friend. My hair
was always messy, so messy i didn't even care, I never wore makeup
and I didn't exactly wear the nicest clothes.
After seeing my yearbook picture one
year, I was disgusted by it and decided I needed to change. I was
sick of how alone I was and I started working out. At first, it was
just once a week with some simple exercising, then it was twice. As I got better, I started working out almost everyday, changing my life
and looks completely. I got rid of my awful braces, bleeched my hair
a little bit so that it looked fresh and nice, bought some new
clothes and I even started wearing makeup.
That was when Nate started
talking to me, no wait... Not talking, he was flirting! It kept going
on until he asked me out one day and since then, we've been the school's
hottest couple, except I'm not hot and I think they're just seeing
'him', not 'us'. My dear best friend, Adam, stuck around and was
the only person I could hang out with being completely myself. I
mean, of course I could me myself with Nate, but with Adam, it was a
whole diferent story. He had been there the whole way, I had known
him my entire life and that meant alot to me.
"Hey love, what are you thinking
about? You're so quiet" Nathaniel, or Nate as I like to call
him, said between chewing on his gum and texting with some of his
"Nothing, just tired" I said,
not being completely honest. I was tired after all, though. It just
wasn't the whole reason.
"Yup" I said. He nodded in
response and that was basically how our conversions had become these last few weeks, which was why I was so scared, why it hurt looking at
him. We were currently at his house, just hanging out, but it started getting late and I told him I had to go home. He walked me to the
door, kissed me goodbye and then I walked towards my car while waving
back at him.
To be completely honest here, I didn't
go straight home. I took a quick stop at Adam's house and we hung out
for an hour, before I actually had to go home.
As I parked my
car in our big driveway, I saw someone sitting on the stairs. I
didn't recognize the her, I just saw the long hair and model-like
features and knew it was a girl – but I didn't have any other
friends than Adam and Nate? The two of them always kept me company, so I didn't feel the need to get some girl friends. I quickly got out of
the black jeep and walked up towards the girl.
”Do I know you?” I asked shyly as I tried to make out the contures of her face. The
mystery girl stood up and walked down the stairs.
”We have PE
together at school” she answered, thinking I would catch up on that
and recognize her. When I didn't, she said her name was Crystal and
that we shared some classes together, as well as PE, which was my
least favorite, no wonder I didn't recognize her from that, I barely
even recognized the teacher.
”Oh, hi. What's up? What are you
doing in my driveway?” I asked, slightly confused. Maybe she was
one of Nate's friends.
”Oh sorry, I'm one of Nathaniel's
friends-” And I was right, of course. ”-and he's been a little
off lately, like he's depressed or scared or something and I just
figured I'd ask you, since he won't tell me anything. So, has
something happened? I just want to know if he's okay” she rambled
on, like she didn't have time to take a breath.
”As far as I know, nothing has
happened, our relationship is just a little tense from I-don't-know-what and I guess he's just tired of that, so it's
probably nothing special. If he doesn't wanna talk about it, don't
push him. Just let him talk when he's ready and I guarantee you that
he'll most likely talk too much. No, I'm just kidding, but it's
probably nothing” I said, not even concerned.
”Are you sure? I just feel like we're
growing apart, that he's keeping something from me” she said. Her
pretty face actually looked really worried, she cared about him.
”Hey- Crystal, don't worry, okay?
I'll talk to him” i said and gave her a reassuring smile.
”Thanks” she said, smiling back at
me and walked away from me. Her petite body moved gracyfully down the
long driveway in the dark and her long, blonde hair swayed back and
forth on her back and her figure moved further away from me.
”Well that was random” I said to
myself and walked up to the wooden front door. As always, my dog
Peach welcomed me home just as I got inside and that always got me in
a better mood. She was a black labrador and even though she was
pretty big and already 6 years old, she still acted like she was a
little puppy. My dad was out of town for the weekend at some work
related stuff, so it was just me and my mom.
”Hi honey, did you
have fun with Nate?” she asked as I walked in to the kitchen.
Everytime my dad was on a business trip, she placed herself in the
kitchen, always sitting at the table with her laptop, paying the
bills, working and just waiting for me to get home. I don't know why
she always did that, but it worked for me, so I just let her do it.
”Yeah, I guess so. Did you have a nice day?” i asked and got
us some coffee.
”You guess so? What's going on with the two of
you, Mel?” she shifted in her seat, turning around to face me. My
eyes fluttered uncomfortably, she looked serious, there was no way I
was getting out of this one.
”I don't know mom. It's just... Every
damn girl in this town is drooling after him, soon enough he'll get
bored of me and-” Mom interrupted me before i could continue.
are beautiful, smart and funny, sweetheart. He's lucky to have you
and if he ever gets 'bored' of you, i will personally rip his head
off for hurting you. Stop worrying so much, you're just creating a
wall between you and that is definitely not good” she said,
standing up to embrace me in the famous mom hug, making me feel safe
As we stood there completely silent,
her phone started ringing She grabbed it from the table and looked at
the screen and instantly answered. Her eyes teared up and she put her
hand infront of her mouth, like she was holding back a scream. I
stared at her, afraid of what was wrong.
She shook her head and frantically said
no a couple of times before she hung up. Her eyes wanderd over to me
and in an instant i knew what it was. My dad.
”I'm so, so sorry, honey. Your dad
was in a carcrash” Everything happened in slowmotion, I saw her
mouth slowly moving as she said those words. I could hear my own
heartbeats, unstable, as my eyes widened and the tears started
welling up. She reached for me as I felt myself getting more distant.
My head hurt, my heart picked up the pace and my vision becam blurry
and then, black. It only felt like I was gone for a couple of
seconds, but when I opened my eyes, I was in my bed, my dear mother
sitting next to me with a phone in her hand. She gripped hard on it,
her knuckles where completely white and her eyes were bloodshot. Her
other hand was locked onto mine and I squeezed it hard to get her full attention.
”Is he alive?” I didn't wanna ask a question I already knew the answer to, but i heard the words coming out of my
mouth anyway. She looked at me with sad eyes and opened her mouth
slowly, unsure of what exactly to tell me.
”I'm so sorry, Melody” Was all she
managed to get out before she broke down on top of my blankets. I
instantly reached for my phone on the nightstand next to my bed and
called the only person I could think of right now.
”Hello?” Adam said in the other end.
”He's dead” I threw out of me
before i broke down too.
Som sagt, jag fick min inspiration från TFIOS, Hollywood's princess och If i Stay, så det kommer hända en del saker. Men jag hoppas ni gillar den, så kommer del 2 om några dagar.