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I wish I could start my day like that today again but no. I did that yesterday and I don't have the time today. Tillsammans för Strängnäs (Together for Strängnäs) have a football game today and I will take pictures of it. I hope some people will come. I know mmy friends will come. It's going to be a good day! I'm most excited to see my man play some football. I want to see him use his legs!
Since I'm always the one that wakes up first I'm in charge of making a good breakfast for this day. It will be something really good, egg. Okey my man ordered it from me yesterday. I thinking of making oatmeal to me.
Yesterdays look will come up later today!
This is blowing my my mind for real! I don't know how to describe it. Can't believe that I've changed so much and lost so much weight in a year. The change really started to happen when I met Omar. And I have not tried hard since I met him. I started to walk a lot. Went to the camp every day. And that is 20-30 minutes walk from one point to the other. Now that we live together we take long walks with Enzo. In the beginning Omar had a hard time with Enzo so I walked him, now they love each other. I think combination of me being happy, move my body and new kind of food started the change.
I have lost 30 kilo. A third of my weight. Now I am normal size. A healthy body. But I have days sadly when I'm thinking I'm not small but I'm working on it, I think it's from my eating disorder that started last year. Do you want to know a fun thing about it, I started to loose weight when I started to eat the way I should. Crazy!
I can see on the picture from last year I was not happy. I tried to look beautiful and a little happy on it. But now I see was miserable. I feel so much better today. Yes I have days I just want to break down and not get up from the bed but it's not that often.
Now I will focus on building a good life for me and my little family. I will be the person God ment for me to be.
I had a busy day. Went to the gym after my morning coffee, after that I went home for breakfast and than a long walk with Enzo and my man, with some food shopping on the way. And we have cleaned the apartment a little. I have not study, shame on me!! Maybe I will find a moment for that when we have gone out with Enzo again.
One good thing is that I feel good today. Okay I had a crazy mood swing when I wanted to kill Omar or just slap him in the face but it ended with kisses soon after, is the time of the month....I love it so much....or NOT. I think he maybe getting a grip of how he should handle me during that week. I will buy chocolate when we go out, I need it.
Can I just say how much I love my Enzo! He is the most wonderful boy in the world. He is a handful from time to time but he has a heart of gold and I will do anything for him. But I think he thinks I'm crazy when I'm trying to take pictures with him....
There you have it, the look for the course start. It felt good to be back at the university but at the same time not. I am motivated to study but in some way I feel like I don't belong there. Felt out of place. The insecure me came back and I feel like an idiot for some reason. Maybe it will pass as time goes by. But I've never felt like I belonged in any situation in Sweden. For some reason I feel like home when I am with my arabic friends. Crazy! Maybe deep inside I am arabic, in my heart? Well, well the future will decide.
I'm exhausted now and will take it easy for the rest of the day and do some real good tomorrow. Dive into the books with other words.
The day has been amazing. We got some amazing news, Omar has a time for an interview. So the waiting is finally over. Feels so good. I pray to God that everything will go right now. But we will figure it out, we always will. I became so happy that tears started to appear. A crazy feeling!
To celebrate I made a raspberry pie. It's so simple to do and so good. We love it and I promised Omar to do it in Iraq to his family. The pressure is on!
And now we have just returned from a long walk with Enzo. We had some fun with him also. So now he is tired and so are we. Of course the camera came with us, I love taking pictures together with my second great love. He is such an wonderful boy.
I will try to load up for tomorrows school. I feel like I can do anything right now. Incredible!
We had an amazing day i Stockholm yesterday. Went to see my brother. Had some food. I helped and made some special food to me that would be close to their food. My turned out really good. Omar loved Daniel's food. So he wants me to try to do that to him again..... Yeey for me.
Me and Omar had some time for ourselves or we took it. I showed him where I went to school when I was about 12-15 years old. I also showed him where I used shop. It was a really good day. We will plan a new day in Stockholm for me and Omar. Go to a big cinema, eat some good food and just enjoy it. I think that will be good.
During the day Enzo was with a good friend who also have a Saluki that Enzo love. Got a picture where Enzo smiled. He had a really good day there. I was thinking if I ever had to give up Enzo I would give him to her because I know he will be loved more than anything. But I will never give him up. I promised him that and that is a promise I will keep until the day he takes his last breath.
We were all very tired when we got home and slept really good. And today is a new day!
Good morning! What a evening I had yesterday. The drain in the kitchen had received a stopper. So 22.00 a plomber came to us when I wanted to go to bed. But he fixed it. He was done 22.30. We tried to fix it or Omar tried so with did not have to have anyone over here so late but the problem was beyond our reach. And I burned myself during the making of food but it's was worth it because the food was so good. You can check my instagram to see what was so good. But it hurt so bad! Omar put some toothpaste and I think it got better.
The sorness from the gym is real today. But I got up from the bed. Trying to wake up for the days activities. We are going to Stockholm today! Visit my brother and se his aparment. And I will show Omar where I used to be when I grow up in Stockholm. It will be so fun!!
I will finnish my coffee and than jump in the shower and get ready for the day. This will be great!
By the way chaned the design a little yesterday. Hope you like it!