Hello fellow Readers!
Thanks for holding onto my really slow-updating blog. But I'm going to try! Maybe this time for sure.
I'm almost ready with mine and Alice's final script and in the end of April we will film (aka shoot) it. Its going to be really exciting. Yesterday I had my first ever Audition for the roles in the film. I have never done that before - and it was a really cool and fun experience that I can get used to. We got to see a lot of good performances and I think we have our lead role. And a few others as well. I really respect actors for what they can do. To just in one second transform themselves into someone else : into the biggest dork, to a mental crazy person or a threatening teenager. I mean, just wow! I wish I would know myself that well that I know what parts of the body I need to transform into a specific character or what images/ memories in my mind that, one a few seconds, can transform me into a beast? a monkey? a doctor? a firefighter? a mom? a sister? someone who has lost someone? there are endless talents on this school and I'm glad I have gotten to work with them all.
Sun and warmth is finally popping up again! I usually don't really wish for it to be summer, or wish for it to be winter. I usually just go with whats right now. But with filming outside in the dark and cold and all, and sitting every hour in the black editing room while the daylight passes by have just been too depressing. I usually like darkness and fairy lights and cozy, but not this year. Sun - I'm glad you're back!
I have not been myself when I have been here. A lot has been personal issues with my non-functional body, but also a little freaking out: who I am as Josefin (without my swimming I have Been my whole life since birth), and who I want to become? And all those belonging questions.
For sure I still have the "problem" of caring too much about other people and their problems and health than focusing on myself, which made me feeling not too well. But if this is me - to care for other people, shouldn't I be happy and feel good about doing so? I do love helping people and make people happy and smile - but to what point or for how long is that good without thinking about yourself? Hmm... To be continued.
Anyway, I miss home a lot - and my niece especially growing so much when only 1yo. But as dad usually says: When you're home again you just want to be back in Prague. So I'm trying to enjoy as much as I can, I really look forward to the last project month, its going to be so much fun! I've met so many lovely people here that I'm for sure going to miss a hell lot of much when I go home. But there's also people who I thought wanted my friendship and turned out not to be true. They just used me, and others, just for the film making sake and other things as well - which I'm not used to at all. I think that I might believe too much that everyone are good inside. Maybe its good - maybe it isn't.
Back to film making! I think that is a world for me! I wouldn't have been up to 05:00 this morning to watch Behind The Scenes of making The Hobbit if I wouldn't finding it really awesome with film. And I really liked the audition process yesterday - to talk to different actors and asking them what they feel and think about when performing a scene about someone else than themselves.