Now I'm sitting here wondering what to do with my life. I got this voice and feeling that says I'm not worth anything. Not to long ago someone broke my heart and took away what was left of me. I feel like that destroyed me. I started to cut again after so long without. To be honest it felt good, mostly because it took away my pain inside for a while. But it never last......
I don't know what to do with myself when I'm so sad. I feel like no one really understands what's going on inside my head. Sometimes I don't even understands it self.
My mind is killing me and no one notice it. I want to scream after help but some how I can't.
The fact that I use humor to cover up the fact that I want to jump off a bridge is kinda scary to someone. But at the same time I want to get killed in a car accident so no one will blame them self for something I want. I feel like if I'm going to kill myself I want to make sure no one of my closest won't feel like it's their fault.