It always took months till me and Mark met with each other. So this meeting happened two days ago. We decided to watch a movie together. Nothing went as planned though. I was on a meeting with work earlier which was longer than planned. I was to meet him at eight in the evening at a cocktail bar. But as the meeting took longer than expected he had to sit down and drink alone. What we just had to do was to meet outside the cinema. While waiting for him I took a beer as I wasn´t sure how this night would be. He came to the cinema really fast, so I didn´t had so much time to endure my beer. But we met, hugged (awkwardly) and went in to buy us some tickets for the movie we were going to watch. Luckily enough there were to seats left, but unlucky as we were nothing besides each other. So we ended up watching something else. Something spanish, the littlest drama and sex.
This was the most boring movie I have ever watched - I can´t even remember the title. But we held each others hand, we kissed and gave massages to each others hands. The movie ended, we kept on to a bar around the corner, orderer two beers and sat out. Here we talked for an hour, we were making out. But for me this wasn´t just making out. there was something making out with him. there was a feeling with him. Something I´ve never had with my boyfriend.
We drank up our beer and went out for a walk. We were now going home. Coming home with him was very tempting, but as I had my boyfriend waiting for me at home with a late night dinner, I couldn´t. So we stood outside, waiting for his tram to come, we were making out, talked, held each others hand, looked at each other faces. If you were there, this would be so much different. You would have to experience it yourself to understand. It was romantic. It was a romance I never have with my boyfriend. The way we kissed, the way he held my hand, the way he hugged and held around me. It felt so much different. It was as if he was my boyfriend. For me it feels like something like these always happen when you are in a relationship. So these couple of days I have only been thinking of him, thinking of meeting him. I want to tell him what I feel, I want to know what he wants and where he wants to go with this we are doing. I wanna know what I can do.
But this is the last chapter about Mark for now. Whenever I will have something about him it will go under Confession - Mark