So, because of the fact that my life has been a little extra tough for the past few months, and a lot of negativity has been surrounding me and my mind, I thought I would share a few good moments and things from the past few months, just to shine some light on those!
- I got my second tattoo. Yes, in the beginning of February I got another tattoo. I got my parents birthdays in Roman numbers (or numerals I thing they are called as well) and I'm so happy about it. Not only because it's for my parents but because I've been wanting to do another tattoo for over 3 years, and I finally did it! It wasn't planed, I just really wanted to so something for me, without it being about or for anybody else.
- I've spent more time with people. Now, this might seem like a weird one, I know, but it's true. For a few months I didn't hang out with anyone, or really did anything when I was off from work or after my shift was done. I just went home, watched some youtube videos and went to bed. But, after everything, and all of the pain and confusion that's been the focus in my life for the past month I decided that I was done. I was just done being alone, and I wanted my life back, so I started doing stuff. Having lunches and dinners with people, going out to clubs and exploring the city I'm working in with an old friend.. Spending mornings and nights with people I've missed and love, and they are slowly helping me back on track.
- I've been feeling myself. For years, and years, my confidence been bad. I've always had some kind of self hatred against myself and that's not gone, not even close, but I'm getting better. I started going to the gym in November last year (when my life started going to shit) and even though I just went there once in a while I still felt good about it. Now, I've been hitting the gym 3 to 4 times a week (if life allows it) and I feel better than I have in years. I also started dressing more like I wanted, and experimenting with make-up, which is really fun!
- I didn't spend Valentin's Day alone. Now, I've never really cared for Valentin's Day. I've always just watched horror movies and stayed in bed all day, or went out with my girlfriends, but this year I wasn't actually alone. We didn't do anything special, or most people wouldn't think we did. We didn't go to a movie or a fancy dinner, or anything at all really. We just stayed in, watching youtube videos in bed, but I couldn't ask for more. I got to spend some real quality time with someone I really care for, and that's all I really wanted.