Isn't clouds just beautiful? ☁ 💜
I’m currently re-watching Teen Wolf. I’ve seen the first season so many times, but it’s so good. Although I haven’t watched the 4th and 5th season because I had a lot of school work, but since it’s summer break I thought why not?
Also, I have a tiny crush on Stiles haha. He’s just so adorable and funny.
Hello hi everyone.
I went on a mission to find a new MAC lipstick and I found one! I really like the colour and the creaminess (??). It’s a matte lipstick, which I love.
Since I am very pale, the lipstick looks a bit dark on me, but I like that anyway so I am very happy about it.
It’s still very hot here, which I don’t enjoy. I seriously thought about moving to Australia during summer time because I absolutely hate summer, and while it’s summer here, it’s winter in Australia. That’s how much I hate summer. Everyone seems to enjoy the sun, but I don’t. Firstly, I cannot be out in the sun. Secondly, there’s bugs, bees, spiders and mosquitoes everywhere. Sidenote, i’m allergic to mosquitoes. I get very swollen and red if I get bitten. So I cannot be out during evening and night time. Lastly, when you’re hot because of the weather, you can’t take off all your clothes (if you’re in public - however, if you like that, do it lmao). But if you’re cold you can put on a sweater or hoodie. It’s more pleasing to be cold than being hot. I love being cold, while it’s raining, cuddled up in bed with a cup of tea. It’s so cozy.
I hope you have a lovely Thursday so far.
I’m literally dying right now. It’s so hot. It’s been too hot to be outside. However, I did go out to catch Pokémons with my sister and it was kinda fun, minus the weather. I prefer rainy days. We ate homemade pizza which was lovely. Then my family and I drove to a place with my parents friends and ate ice cream.
I hope you all had an amazing day. Stay strong and stay motivated to live.
Yesterday, my family and I drove to this beautiful place (middle picture).
My mum said it wouldn’t rain. Guess what? It started raining.
But we ate ice cream so it was alright. Although, I like when it’s raining. 😌
Anyway, the day was alright. We spent most of the day in the car - which made me a bit sick but yeah.
During the ride home, I felt so sad and anxious. I didn’t know what to do because I was stuck in the car. This summer has been the worst for me. I haven’t left the house that much due my depression and anxiety.
Whenever I do something, I feel like I suck at it. For example, if I start drawing, which I mainly enjoy doing, I all of a sudden feel like I suck at it. And it sucks. Because I’ve lost interest in what I used to enjoy. Life sucks.
Right now I’m laying in my bed, feeling more depressed and anxious than ever. This summer has been hell for me. I’ve been so depressed, and refused to leave the house. My anxiety has also been the worst it’s ever been. But I try to keep my head up and keep fighting through the pain I have inside of me. 😓
Well, let me introduce myself.
Hello hey hi. My name is Clara Smith. I am 17 years old. She/her. Feminist.
I love music, such as rock, heavy metal, pop & grunge. Some of my favourite are, One of the Direction, Nirvana, Little Mix, Black Veil Brides, Ariana Grande, Selena Gomez, Bring Me The Horizon and Rammstein.
When I'm not in school or studying, I like to draw and take pictures. I also enjoy making videos, however though, I'm very awkward and I hate my own voice. I like to think that I'm good at drawing, but in reality I'm horrible (but at least I try!!). I do like fashion, however, I'm not good at matching clothes with each other and it usually ends up with me wearing all black (which I don't mind), but yeah. My style is usually similar to Eleanor Calder. I don't have a lot of money to spend on makeup and clothing although I would like to. I think fashion is very interesting and would love to learn more about it. The same with makeup, I literally suck at makeup which is usually why I wear the same 'look' everyday. I suck. I know.
I forgot to mention that I'm in a depression. I have been depressed for quite a while now. Some days are just a blur, but some days are alright. Some days I can't go outside because I feel horrible. I try to go out as much as I can, but it's not the easiest. Most of the time I'm home, watching YouTube and trying to forget about my depression and anxiety. However, it is very difficult. But at least I try.
On this blog, I assume I will post a lot photography and try to maybe post about myself (?), I don't know yet. I'm not that interesting. And also, I never do anything spontaneous so hihi.