Hi everyone. It's been quite a while in here. I hope you all had a great Christmas with your loved ones and a great happy new year. Let me tell you a little bit of 2014 and 2015. So many good and bad things happened. So many painful and ugly moments yet so many beautiful things. My life truly took a 360 degree turn. I met a lot of new people who soon became a part of my life and my friends but also lost many others at the same time. My relationship that lasted for about 10 years ended but God sure had a plan for me. I had the chance of trying new work places and by doing that I gained more experience. I explored so many new things about life and I grew so much as a person.
I began too see my life in a whole new perspective. Many of my days was filled with anxiety, worries and angst and that stole away my happiness. I wanted to give up trying to fix every broken piece in me but thanks to God who gave me strenght who lifted me up in my darkest hour I pushed myself up again and I began to put all my worries and my trust in God, who really helped me through everything hard in my life.
I am blessed with all the people in my life right now, they believed in me and they helped me along the way. My cousin she believed in me she was there for me and she pushed me everytime I felt like giving up and she still do that. She is a blessing in my life and I thank God for her and for my family and friends. Through God's help and for sending me these wonderful people in my life I can say that I saw a bright light in the dark and that pushed me to fight and get up again.
Life was starting to work out beautifully and the last puzzle was falling into place when suddenly my dad passed away. My world was quickly falling apart. I was experiencing more emotions in one year than I had ever felt in my lifetime. I could not seem to make sense of anything that was happening in my life. I lost my parent, my hero, and my teacher. I thought a lot about death and dying. I still had plenty of questions, but nobody to answer them. And they certainly weren't fun questions.
So I learned things on my own, great big things that I couldn't have understood any other way. I learned the importance of telling people that you love them. Don't ever let them wonder how you feel. Of all the things I regret, missing the chance to say "I love you" will never be one of them. But, I got through it, and now I look back at all the moments in my life when I felt like I couldn’t go on and smile on them because they've made me strong and they were raw. Life is raw, real and will make you feel every emotion and that is okay.
So, looking back to 2015, who would've known that someone I now love I might never had thought about then, someone else is in God's care and not with us in this world. But I know for sure that I will keep on replacing doubt with faith, fear with courage and sight with vision.
For 2016 I will not make any resolution I will only put up goals that I want to achieve. It's a new year, a new blessing, I am here for a reason, I am alive and in good health so I am gonna make the best of it. I am given another chance at life and I am so thankful to God for that. It's going to be a life changing year for me. I am looking forward to all the up's and down's, all the daily bumps of this year because I know I will overcome anything. Bury your past, let flowers grow where they lay.
#2016 Who's with me?