Meet my son Eli. He is now three years old and growing more each and everyday. God blessed me with this little boy when I was just a kid myself. At the age of fifteen I found out I was expecting. Crazy right? I was shocked myself. When I saw those two pink lines on the test I nearly had a heart attack. I was so young, so scared, I had no idea what to do. "I'm fifteen years old how will I ever make it as a mother when I'm still a kid myself?" At this time so many thoughts were running through my head it was unbelievable. I knew I was going to keep this child no matter what. I made the choice to lay down and act like an adult, well now it was time for me to really become an adult and be a mother to a little blessing regardless of whether I was ready or not. This was happening, a total life change. Also thinking wow, my mother is going to kill me... I was petrified to tell my mom. My dad wasn't around and she was the one who had always been there for me and I felt as if I was going to break her heart. Her little girl having a baby? That's a lot for a mother to take it. When I finally built up the courage to tell her she was livid, shocked, and well to say the least, extremely upset. As time went on she accepted the fact that her baby was having a baby herself. She went to ever doctor appointment and made sure I had everything because unfortunately the father of my child wasn't the best. Pregnancy was rough, going to school, growing out of all your cute little clothes you once fit in so well, the disturbed looks from people in public. I mean really, it was a lot for a teenager to take on but I did it. I struggled, I cried, I had my heart broke by some boy who told me he'd stay forever only to find out that wasn't true. I had to stay strong though, I couldn't let this or the world beat me down! I was about to become a mother. A life that is mine to protect, to feed, to nourish, to love, and to make sure he grew up with a childhood he wouldn't have to repair himself from. As a mother I wanted what was best for him at all times. In my belly and the moment he entered this world. Well on January 11th 2014 he did just that. He entered this world and my god when I tell you it was the best day of my life, it absolutely was. Labor and giving birth was amazing. The feeling you get seeing your baby for the first time is a feeling like no other. Hearing their little cry, or feeling there fingers wrap around yours but barely being able to because they're too small. It's all around AMAZING. From that day on I knew I'd never love anything or anyone the way I love him. As the months passed and he grew and grew, he never failed to amaze me. Watching him meet all his milestones, learning new things, and finally saying mama was like wow. Thank you god for giving me this. You know, they say god doesn't give you more than you can handle and at fifteen-sixteen years old I swore I thought it'd be too much for me to handle but boy was I wrong. God knew what he was doing by blessing me with Eli. I'm not saying it was easy, I'm saying to all you young moms it's worth it. I know there are times when you feel helpless, alone, or just feel like you're going to have a mental break down but that's normal for any mom no matter what age. Being that Eli is three years old I pretty much have this mom thing down. He's motivated me through the years, I graduated high school, worked a few silly jobs here and there but I am now an assistant teacher at a preschool and I couldn't have made it this far without Eli. For all you young moms out there keep on going. Make every day the best you can, hold your babies close because let me tell you, it goes fast, and even if the dad isn't around YOU got this. You don't need anyone but your child and to love yourself!

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