This is just a random update on my life and more of a journal entry instead of telling you about specific experiences I made. Enjoy!
So, being an exchange student is great, it's awesome, it's probably the best thing that's ever happened to me, but of course there are also a few bad parts. Everyone now thinks of being homesick, missing your family, missing your favorite food or activity, all these things you miss during summe break or while traveling. I don't really agree with that. I was only homesick-ish two times, the first one was rather at the beginning where I was a little sick and a lot of things just went wrong and I felt lost and just wanted to know the place better and how everything worked so I wouldn't have to be so dependent on everybody else. I don't know if this counts as the typical homesick though. The other time was on christmas where I missed my sister, but after skyping and seeing my natural family that bit of homesickness was gone too.
So, if it's not being homesick, what is it then? Well, let me explain. After your exchange year is over you go back to your Native country and of course are all excited to see your family and friends there again. But, did anything really happen there? No. Well, this train station got a new store, the store in that corner is closed, and you missed a few parties and stories. But did they change? No, not really, not compared to how you've changed. Which is totally reasonable! Anyway, you come back with all these new memories and experiences in your backpack and they are kind of stuck at the same place. Maybe their backpack got a little heavier too, but not like the one of an exchange student. The first two weeks are wonderful, you get to see all your friends and talk to them, and you realize you basically are where you left off. Which is awesome! But no one really cares about your year, your experiences. While you're trying to catch up with everything that happened, they just want to know how it was. Well, how can I describe 10 months in a few sentences? I can't. So I just say it was great, awesome or ask me a little more about what you want to know so I can tell yo, 10 months are a lot but then nothing really happens. Maybe one question from your closest friends but besides that...nothing.
And then the other part that really isn't too great is that now your friends are all over the world. Hmm, isn't that awesome, knowing people all over the globe? You have soo many friends now! Yes and yes, knowing the people is awesome, but they are just so far away. I can't just walk to Spain to hang out on a Tuesday afternoon. I can't just bike to Finland to have some FroYo. That just doesn't work. But, you have friends here too? Yeah, I do, but it's different. Not that I don't appreciate them as much, but it is just different. All these people you know around the globe have a lot in common with me. They have all been exchange students and are going through the same things as I am going through them. We can talk and the other one just understands, no explaining needed. They know how you feel, how you think, what probably bothers you, what excites you. "Normal" people need explanations, and after giving these explanations a few times you realize, they still won't really understand. They can try, but they will never fully understand and they can't say same or I agree! or That's how I felt yesterday. The people that understand you the best are far far away and seeing them is difficult, and expensive.
So, conclusion; the parts that suck about being an exchange student is change and having friends all over the world. Hmm, isn't that how programs advertise exchange years? Yes, exactly, and these two things have so much more meaning in them than just the obvious one.
So, why is this blogpost called life is awesome? BECAUSE IT STILL IS! Having changed and grown so much and having friends all over the world, I can now do so many more amazing things! Example; I just booked flights to Finland a week ago and I will be there in August! I'm making plans for next summer to go to Croatia just with friends! I just bought concert tickets a few hours ago and I won't go only with Swiss friends. Life can be awesome, if you want it to be. You just have to work for it and not only see the bad sides I just totally wrote two big paragraphs about. But, whatever, these things also need to get said once or twice. Since I have been "home" I have already made amazing plans and you just have to look for these opportunities and take them. Say yes more than you would want to, say yes even if it scares you to jump into freezing cold water, say yes, to do something you have never done before in life, say yes to opportunities, say yes to living an awesome life!
I feel like this blogpost is veeery confusing and I don't really know where I am going with it and who even will read it. I hope you aren't as confused as I am and you don't think I am a total weirdo (which I think I am but I don't mind...). I just felt like writing this morning and calming my huge excitedness (not a word but who cares) down a little bit. I'm goingn to end this here and I hope you my dear reader will still read more of my blogposts.
Enjoy life and laugh lots,
your way too excited Chantal :)))))