Born in Stockholm, Sweden.
Swedish mom and Portuguese dad.
I have one sister (Elise), two nephews whom I love to bits (Maxime & Liam) and a son (Jayden) who is the love of my life and keeper of my heart.
I'm a single mom living in Stockholm and I work as a kindergarten teacher but right now I´m on maternity leave and loving every moment with Jayden.
Jayden was born on a cold and snowy winter night at 8:26pm.
I've always wanted to be a mom but it was always a question of not being the right time or the right person to have a child with.
So for a few years I thought of the possibility of doing it on my own and become a single mom through IVF.
In Sweden it isn't yet possible to do it as a single parent but it's on it's way. So I contacted Denmark where they have 2 clinics in Copenhagen that do IVF for single women.
I started the process in the fall of 2015 and did a whole lot of different test and everything was fine. I spoke to my doctor several times about wanting to do this procedure and he said that I should contact the clinic and ask about how it was done and maybe talk to someone that had done it.
After all that was taken care of and everything was OK I decided that I was going to have a great last summer in Portugal and then go to Copenhagen in september or october. The clinic had all my documents and said that I just had to call them to set a date.
A few months before my birthday I met a guy. There is always "a guy"!!!
We hit it off straight away and we dated for a few months.
He has a child and doesn't want anymore children and I told him a about my plans and he thought that it was great. That way I got what I wanted and he got what he wanted.
Little did I know the universe had other plans for me.
On the 10th of june I celebrated my birthday with a few friends in a restaurant and he joined us with a friend. After that night we didn't really speak to each other anymore. Don't really know why. He said in a text message (after I messaged him asking what was going on) that he took me off Facebook and erased my phone number because I didn't reply to his texts for a whole weekend and that he wasn't up for playing games.
I had a few bad days and wasn't really up to talking to anyone, but only the people who really know me know that this can happen a few times a year.
I didn't contact him after that until I knew that I was pregnant.
I got the news about 2 weeks after all that happened and it was a hard thing to swallow. It took at least a month for me to realize all that was happening and that my life would never be the same again.
I went to Portugal and talked to family and friends and after returning in august to Sweden I called him to tell him the news.
He wasn't very moved or actually reacted that much to what I had to say. I told him that I was going to keep it and that I didn't expect anything from him. He was very quiet (I understand why). I then told him to think about it and to call me the day after,… or not! Whatever he decided to do would be the answer to if he was going to be present in the baby's life or not.
He never called me back…
It doesn't matter because Jayden has so much love and people that love and support him in his life that he doesn't need him.
The day the questions come I will have to deal with them then but for now it is me and my baby Jayden against the world!!! <3