Ok I just need to write down some shit here. First of all I have my period. Which might not be the funniest thing to know, but I just have to tell someone that my stomach hurts so bad and I feel so bad. I have to sit in the weirdest ways possible to make my stomach hurt less, and shit, I want to have chocolate! Or something sweet, candy works too. Or something salt, like chips maybe. I don't know but I have been struggling through the whole day in school.
Otherwise I was thinking about one thing. Soon, or like in a few months, more like half a year, we are going to have this thing with our school, that all students who graduates goes through. It's prom. And today before our last class started one of the girls that I am with during school said to my other friends at the same table:
"You know this guy (his name, let's pretend his name if fucking Rob or something). He send me a snapchat yesterday, asking if I would go to prom". And we were like, alright - cool, whatever. But then she continued the story: "But you know, I don't want to go with Rob, I don't even know him so I feel like it would just be very embarrassing". My other friend answered something but I don't even remember. "I want to go with my boyfriend, so I texted him that back". We all were like alright girl.
Problem is, I haven't been thinking about this but people already ask people out on prom. I just feel like I am not going to be asked by anyone. Like seriously, I am fucking ugly. But reality just hit me. Because I have always been thinking like, omg, it's so far away, but it's actually not. And people will go to prom, and I will probably be the only one who is not going. Because who, WHO, whats to go with me. Let me make that short answer for you, NO ONE. I feel like if people already ask people out, I am not going to be asked. But why would someone, there are so many other pretty girls at my school, so people better ask them, not me.
Truthfully though. I would really like to go to prom. It's just once in a life. So of course it would be cool. But I just don't think anyone's going to ask, and I am too afraid to ask myself.