The summer that didn’t follow my life plan whatsoever. The actual plan was to graduate from Cal State, Northridge in August after finishing my last two classes over the summer. My family was supposed to meet me in California and we would celebrate my birthday and graduation in Mexico. For fall I was getting my work-visa, I’d move and get my dream job. Dream on. That did not happen. Instead the big crash happened at the end of April. My thyroid said thanks and goodbye and since then I’ve been a tired, sad and anxious version of myself. It’s been completely awful.

I got diagnosed with Grave’s disease the summer of 2010 or ’11 (wow, I can’t even remember because it was never important or made any difference in my life) but because of living in the US and insurance issues (fuck pre-existing conditions), it was never really a priority to have the thyroid taken out. Other than that I have always felt normal when I was sick and never had any symptoms. Until now. When the thyroid went from hyperactive to hypo, my body and brain did too. I went through May in a haze. Thank god I was already doing so well in all my classes because I pretty much failed every final due to brain fog. I could not for my life find my parked car, because I just couldn’t even remember parking it, my words were lost in translation and even having a normal conversation was too hard since my brain was too slow to even comprehend what people were saying to me. I was a mess and cried myself through all of May and June in complete panic over what was happening to me. It was impossible to see anything clear through the fog. Today, my body has calmed down a bit and I’m back in Sweden waiting for surgery on Aug 21. It scares me to death but nothing scares me more than having to feel like this forever.

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  • Cat 2.0

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How's everyones Saturday going? I haven't slept since Thursday and today was just not going my way at all. Just one of those days when Murphy's law prevails. To be completely honest my life is always like that, if something can go wrong, it will. And even when you think something can't go wrong, it does. Anyways, even after all the effort I put in studying for the Econ final I did extremely bad. And then the parkingticket happened. It made me so annoyed I left it on the windshield. Hopefully it's still there tomorrow. Or not.

I just came back from the beach to watch the sunset with a friend. I will never get sick of those palm trees. Now it's time for a little wine before I go to bed early. Tomorrow it's time to get back to the gym. Can't wait!

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About to pull an allnighter for my Econ final. Ugh. I'll be back tomorrow.

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Chugging my coffee standing in the kitchen. Date went horrible last night. So bad. Awful. But I had a great hairday, and that always counts for something, right?

I'm heading to school, I'll be back with the details later!

If this is not great hair then I don't know what is

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Since I just can't sit still to study my little trick is to go try different coffeeshops to make it for fun. Today I went to Groundwork Coffee in Venice. I'm actually not too impressed. The coffee was fine, not great, it was tiny and crowded and nothing really cute about it. In a perfect world all coffeeshops would have string lights, latte art and huge white cups. However, they did have almondmilk though which is a plus for me.

Now I'm gonna pour myself a (huge) glass of wine before this boy comes over. He seems like one of the good ones which makes me even more nervous. Ah, wish me luck!

By the way, here's a picture of the amazing California sunshine.

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Just got back from my morning walk through Brentwood. It's how I always starts my mornings, either walk, hike or the gym. Coffee in my hand and a podcast in my ear, no better way to start the day. Especially when it's sunny, which it really hasn't been lately. I know all about June Gloom in Los Angeles but May is usually nice and I'm not a fan of these cloudy skies. Anyways, I need to get going about to go pick a friend and take her to the airport and then I have a day of studying in ahead of me. Tonight I have a date which I'm kind of already freaking out about ugh, I'll keep you updated!

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Last weekend I grabbed my friend Maddy and made her go with me to Sockerbit which is a Swedish candy store in West Hollywood right by the Grove. Trust me when I say that I try to stay away from sugar to any extent possible because I know that if I start there is no stopping me. This particular Saturday I got feeling though, and bought $36 worth of candy. Finished the leftovers for breakfast on Sunday morning and then I felt sick for two days straight. I mean it this time. Never again.

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I'm Cat. I moved to Los Angeles 6 years and 4 months ago after having lived a little bit all over the place. I've gone to school, been on a working visa, and then back to school again. Which is where I am at right now. In school, Cal State Northridge to be precise, studying apparel merchandising. 6 years later, needless to say, friends, best friends, boyfriends and roommates has come and gone. Until yesterday I lived with my best friend. We used to drink wine and watch movies all nights long. Go to the gym together and do our grocery shopping together. He was never my boyfriend but he might as well have been. We were like an old married couple. Yesterday he packed up all his things and left for a new city and a new girl.

Which leaves me, Cat, a single girl living in her own apartment, completely lonely and independent for the first time ever, and it scares me to death almost as much I want to jump up and down of excitement.

All alone in the best city in the world.

This year started of a little shaky and not as I had planned it at all. Cat 2.0 was put on the shelf for a second but I'm back working on her and this is, among many other things, what you'll get to follow on this blog. How to be the best me I possible can be.

Thanks for stopping by, I hope you enjoy it!


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