Hello!

Just a quick update on my life as of right now, 7:50 p.m.

I have got a new job, I'm going to a sleepover/fun day with my best friend and I'm travelling to Switzerland with my family. I will probably make a post about the day with my friend, along with some pictures. And I will for sure do a post about Switzerland.

So, I got a new job, which i'm really excited and glad about. It feels more right than my old job, even though it takes some getting used to. You could say it's a high end grocery market. I already did a 8 hour shift, ended up being 6 hours instead, and it went quite well, if I should say so myself. My new boss knows about my autism and such, which he's being really cool about. That's always nice, some people ask a lot about it, which is fine, as long as they do it respectfully. sometimes they say it in a tone or with an attitude - that provokes me. 

Since Forrest Gump is a cute movie and all, I'll let it be, but other movies characterise autism and other diagnoses so painfully. I know that there are some cases, but the way the actors portray it, it just bothers me. To say it mildly, they really cut it out so everyone understand, but then it also makes some people think, that there are no other ways to be autistic - there's a lot of ways to be autistic, cause we're still people with very different personalities. 

I need to stop there, I get worked up on talking about it. Anyways I hope you're all doing well and having a wonderful day/night. But bottom line: life is pretty great right now, I'm just in need of more energy.

Love Caro ♥️

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Hello everybody!

I have spent one week away from society and to my own surprise, it was quite amazing. There was no electricity, no running water nor a proper bathroom, that was the biggest challenge for me. The bottom line of island camp is to do absolutely nothing, getting away from the everyday stress we experience with jobs and phones and social media.

There was the mot beautiful surroundings, I spent so much time on the beach. It was so calm and quiet, I haven't been that relaxed in such a long time - until Wednesday morning, but that's personal matters. We made food fro the bottom, played games, played soccer, went to the ocean for a dip. I even skinny dipped for the first time with my boy friends. We slept in tents, very different cause I feel like you have no privacy at all.

We were 40+ people, like a little community

We either showered in the ocean, which in my opinion isn't a real shower, or at the harbour where you'd pay a dollar for a 3 minute warm water shower. I couldn't really let my makeup go, thought I could but couldn't after all. Glad that I don't use much, so every morning was just brushing my eyebrows up again and curl my eyelashes.

But it was all a really good experienced I'd do it all over again, but when the week was over and we were on our way home, I was more than ready to get home to my shower, my bed, my chargers, everything, but I had a difficult time adjusting to everything. To have everything at hand again.

Love Caro ♥️

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​It’s almost 8 years ago, and sitting here completely dissolved, I can’t comprehend it. It was quick and it was painless in the start. Even as a 9 year old, I knew what death meant, but I hadn’t thought about everything else that came with it. I hadn’t thought about how much I’d miss you, I’d miss all the time I spent with you, I took all of it for granted. The years after you had left was rough. Even with the little knowledge of death, that I had. The first few days, I had forgotten that you were gone. I haven’t told anyone that. I would wake up and think of you, and then I would walk out into the kitchen and realise. But the first day, where mom told us, is the clearest and I almost can’t help tearing up when telling it, even if it’s close friends who ask about it.

I was 9, it was fall and I woke up wondering why mom hadn’t woken me up for school yet. Confused as I was, I walked out into the kitchen and the neighbour, Winnie, was there cooking pancakes, Mille and Benjamin watcing TV in the living room. I asked her where mom was, she said I should sit down and watch TV, and that she would be home soon enough. The next thing I remember is mom sitting down to talk with Ida by her side. Her eyes are puffy. Mille and Benjamin are playing on the couch, I’m quiet - I could feel the tension in the air. I can’t remember the words that left her mouth, but the next thing I remember is Winnie, Ida, mom and I breaking completely down into tears. I can’t recall anything as painful as that day, and all the days where I can’t stop missing you. But life is unfair, and we didn’t even get to say goodbye. 

I still can’t talk about that, explaining those few lines, without my eyes watering up, wether I want it or not. As it is now, I don’t see how I should be able to explain it without crying a bit.

I hid it away for years. Until last year. Grief can’t be forced upon you, when it’s time, you’ll grief. You’ll know when you do, cause it’ll leave you feeling empty and yet, you’re full of anger and sadness and full of so many unanswered questions. The day it was 7 years ago you left, was the day I started to wonder and think. This school year has given me the opportunity to evolve, both socially and mentally. There has been a lot of questions I’ve thought of, but they’ve all been forgotten, but one remains; I wonder, if you would have been proud of me in any way, cause that really means a lot to me.

Mom says you would’ve been, and so does my best friends. It would’ve meant the world to me, to hear it from you, but instead I’ve heard it from mom. She has, in the heat of the moment, said that she wasn’t proud of me, but dissapointed. I find myself remebering her saying dissapointed, rather than proud. Not that it matters all that much, but I just don’t know who I’m doing this for then? On days like then, maybe even weeks, I can’t find the strenght nor the motivation to keep going. Sometimes I don’t want to at all.

I miss you, a lot more than I let on, even if I can’t remember every single thing we did. I only remember bits and pieces, but what I do remember, I hold onto as tight as I can. Those are the memories I value the most, cause I can’t make any new.

Love ​Caro ​​♥️

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Hi everyone!

I don't use a lot of makeup, so it's important for me that my skin looks the best it can. And I've come up with this super dewy and casual look, that I think is too easy not to recreate.

You'll need some facewash, a facial hydration mask, a light and hydrating facial and some vaseline, all common drugstore things. You can use whatever you're comfortable with, just find some things that are alike.

1) take a shower, wash your hair and when you're done, make sure your face is semi dry, then put some cleansing foam on the palm of your hand. Then apply it to your forehead and both cheeks, start rubbing gently on your cheeks and forehead for about 30-60 seconds. I like to wash my hair, put conditioner in and then us the cleansing foam, but that's just a prefrence.

2) after you've showered, comb your hair out of your face and maybe secure it with some bobby pins. Apply a thin layer of a hydrating face mask and let it dry. Preferably a peel off mask. When dry, peel it off and make sure there's nothng left on your face and jawline.

3) if you're using the moisturizer I use, 2-3 pumps should do the trick. It shoud just be a thin layer, that's absorbent quickly.

4) I prefer to use natural things as makeup, as I don't really use makeup, so I use a bit of lip balm as highlighter.This lipbalm can be used to literally anything, so I dap my fingers a few times and get a bit of product on, then apply it where you would normally put on highlighter. But be careful not to over do it, you don't want to look greasy.

Hope you enjoyed this post. Let me know in the comments, if I should post more about stuff like this. (Be in mind, I was a bit hot in the pic since it was one of the warmest days in Denmark)

Love Caro ♥️

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I just watched "The girl on the train," and I absolutely love it. As this is a review, there will be spoilers.

The movie is directed by Tate Taylor and it's based on a Paula Hawkins' 2015 debut novel with the same name. The movie has quite the cast with Emily Blunt as the main character. Other names are Rebecca Ferguson, Haley Bennet, Luke Evans and Lisa Kudrow with a minor role

There are three point of views in this movie, all three are women who's been involved with one man, Tom, in some kind of way. Rachel takes the train to work everyday and sees a bit of Megan's life, the life she wants.

Rachel was married to Tom and she wanted a baby, she wanted a baby really bad. When she couldn't conceive naturally nor with medical help, she started drinking and with the nightly and daily drinking binge, she blacked out. In the end of the movie, us viewers learn from Martha (Lisa Kudrow) that it's actually Tom, who was a bad person. In the movie, we get a flashback to a party at Tom's boss house, and Tom's wife, Rachel, is acting really rude and apparently drunk. Tom then tells her later on, that she might've gotten him fired. In the end of the movie, Rachel meets Martha on the train and apologises for her behaviour at the party. Martha is confused and explains how she experienced the party, and little by little Rachel starts to remember all the times Tom were perceived as the victim, when she in fact was. Rachel also has stalker tendencies.

Megan is a different woman. Life has taken a toll on her at a very young age and caused her to be distant, expect when she's intimate with someone. During the movie, she encountered sexual intercourse with her husband, Scott, her shrink and Tom. Megan goes missing and everyone thinks it's Rachel because she can't account for her whereabouts, we also learn she took the train everyday in vein, cause she lost her job a year ago due to her alcohol addiction. When they find Megan, she is pregnant.

Anna is married to Tom after she was the other woman when he was married to Rachel, they now have a baby girl together, Evie. Anna finds out that Tom has been sleeping with the nanny, Megan, and things quickly escalate from there, revealing Tom's true self.

I hope this review was informative. I tried to keep the spoilers to a minimum, cause if you haven't seen this movie, I strongly recommend you do. It's so great, the acting and everything just lines up. It is gory and a bit scary, since it is a thriller, but so worth it.

Love Caro ♥️

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Hello everyone!

I am done with 10th grade - what a year it has been for me. From the 8th of August, when I started at a new school (also my birthday) and to now, I can't go anywhere without hearing, that I have matured and grown up.

My oral exams, even though stressful, went smoothly and my grades are also what most people would call great - I myself am a perfectionist, so I don't think anything else than 12 (A) is great. I got 10 (B) in Danish, 7 (C) in math and 10 (B) in English. I am really happy about math, since it really isn't my strongest subject, and has never been.

I have made some amazing friends throughout this year and I am really grateful. I have also learned, that the public traffic is the worst at making it in time - I'm a very precise person, when it comes to time and 5 minutes does make a difference.

In honor of this school year, I have found a picture from one of our trips around Copenhagen w/ two of my best friends. It was our first trip together, where we really bonded, we don't go more than 12 hours without talking to each other. I really hope for everyone reading this, have as good friend as I do - not to sound rude or anything.

The 23rd of August, I'm getting my diploma and is off to summer holidays. After summer holidays I have decided, after thinking it thoroughly through, that I will take a sabbatical year to get my act together and mentally prepare myself for college. Also to travel, my true passion.

Love Caro ♥️

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Hello everybody!

I wanted to talk about my OCD, how I experience it, and it is how I experience it, cause quite frankly, it is experienced very individually.

Officially, my OCD is called trichotillomania which means, that I pull my hair out - typically when I'm at my lowest mentally and stressed. I haven't shown symptoms for years, last time was probably around 2009, when something traumatic happened in my life, which still has a huge effect on, how I see life today.

As I haven't shown symptoms in years, my mother still looks for symptoms. And I'm very aware of it myself, I don't wanna get sick and need loads of help. Even though there's nothing wrong in asking for help, ever, I just don't want to go through it. I wanna function like any other hard working, human being.

I am a slighty bit concerned about it, for example; I almost can't get myself to go to sleep without my phone having 100% battery. And when it's at 60%, I almost get neurotic, trying to find a charger for it.

Some people do think, "why don't you just stop yourself? You know what you're doing is wrong," and it really isn't that simple at all. Let me break it down, if an alcoholic was trying to stop drinking and had some whiskey, gin or whatever prefrence, in the house, do you think they could stop drinking? It's a different example, but you hopefully get the idea.

To be honest, I've never understood my own diagnose, and it doesn't bother me that I haven't. If you have any questions about anything, feel free to comment or message me.

Love Caro ♥️

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Hello everybody reading this!

This is my very first post, as you probably can see, and this is more of an introduction to me and what I'll be blogging about, so I hope you'll find it interesting enough to keep reading and follow along!

I'm Caroline, I'm a 16 (almost 17) year old girl from Copenhagen, Denmark. I'm quite normal, what makes me different from most other girls, is my daily challenges due to my OCD, Autism and Asperger Syndrome. I can function like any other girl my age, to a certain limit. From what I've seen from other blogs, they are usually most entertaining or interesting, if the blog they're reading, is genuine and personal. So that's what I'm gonna make my blog - personal and genuine.

I'm not set on which kind of blog this is gonna be, but I'm guessing lifestyle

Other than my challenges, I have a mother, stepfather, two sisters and a brother - I'm the oldest one of them. the smallest sister being 4, my brother being 10 and my sister being 14. We have two dogs, both Shetland Sheepdogs.

I hope you found it interesting and will follow my journey in life.

Love Caro ♥️


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