This is a story about a girl, with the ability to build walls higher than the sky.
She was clumsy so she always lost the key to the one and only door, but as she got closer to that door, it was clear that she was only hiding it in her pocket. No one was allowed inside because her own rule was to never speak her mind. Not even today no one can break those walls, that hides a world with dreams and possibilities. But the story doesn't begin with the walls, it begins with a girl that was silenced.
Told to stay quiet because her words meant nothing. She did what she was told but inside her words was screaming to get out. But every time she opened her mouth, her words was numbed. Of course there was times she showed what she got and screamed out every word she had kept inside. As her time to shine was up, she closed herself inside her walls and kept quiet because maybe someone could see her and notice her stupidity.
People told her to stay quiet because her words wasn't relevant, she was told to be silence because their words were more important. In the end she blew up and said things that she would regret because she was told to hold her mouth shut. She wasn't allowed to speak her mind, she wasn't allowed to show her intelligence, she wasn't allowed to let her true self show.
Even every time her fingers touched the pen, she hesitated because she was told to be quiet and never speak her mind. It was a rule that she followed through her childhood and up to today. Now what's left of her is a broken child inside a woman's body. But she met people in her life that pushed her to change that side of her, to let her speak her mind and express herself. For a time in her life she felt like her life meant something, the thought of actually being born for something and not just to stay silenced. In the end nothing is meant to last forever, and over time those walls grew back up again. she turned her back and walked away, the room was full but no one was listening because she didn't have anything interesting to say.
As time passed she forgot about everything, shutting everything inside a hidden door in her mind, acting happy with a smile on her lips. But inside she was really just lonely and broken, because that was the price she paid to be quiet. All the things that she had tried to forget and all the things that had made her into who she is today. Still she can do nothing but stay quiet because her words don't mean anything, it's just a mumbling that no one can hear, no matter how much she screams.
It didn't take long before that door suddenly started to open, without noticing it, the room had gotten full and started forcing everything to spill out. Her mind got shattered all over the place and she barely knew what she was doing anymore, with anger she started to close the walls for everyone. Her friends and family knew nothing and still don't know what's going on inside her mind. Because she was told to stay quiet and don't say a word what was going on in her mind, it didn't mean a thing, she meant nothing.
To cover her own wounds she cared more about others and decided to carry them, help them through their struggles even if she was bleeding out while carrying them. Because their problems was much bigger and she wanted to be there for them because she knew how it felt and to hide her own pain she dressed up as the support pillar but really from the cracks she was bleeding. Losing herself at some point when she lost a dear soul to a horrible sickness, she continued to stay as the pillar but inside she was crying her heart out. Because she really just need someone to carry her. Once again she couldn't speak even if she screamed on the inside. In the end she stopped listening, closing herself inside those walls, letting no one pass the gate.
Until today she still struggles and now more than ever, but today that rule don't exist. But still she doesn't speak because it's not a rule anymore, it's a habit.