And suddenly it all becomes a memory...

Coming home again, after a year in a totally different country from the one you have been living in for 17 years before that, is probably the most complicated feeling ever to describe.
You are a different person than you were before when you leave for your host country, and most exchange students know it has done nothing but great things to them. Even though you have lived all your life in your home country except those 11 months, most students feel like everything is unaccustomed for them. You often fight with the tears when you look back at all the memories. You wish you could do it all over again, because you enjoyed it so much that it way too far became a memory.

When you look back you should be proud of what you did. When you look back you know how much fun it actually was, even though most of the times you didn’t even realize it.

When arriving to your host country you had a certain certainty that in the end you would go back home and even though sometimes it seemed like an eternity, the time just flew by. Now you have to go back and leave this life you built - your new life of which your friends and family at home barely know anything about. Sure, you told them about it, they saw pictures posted on Facebook, but they don’t know what it was like. They don’t know which bus you had to take to go to school everyday. They don’t know how you got so used to your name being mispronounced. They don’t know how deep your connection is with your host family and your fellow exchange students. They don’t know how lonely and sad you felt sometimes, but how great the experience was in the end. Most of all, they don’t know what you have to leave behind.

I remember my last weeks very well. I don’t think I have ever been such an emotional mess as I was then. On one hand I was super excited to go back - to see my friends, my family and my country. I had made a list of all the foods I would eat when I was back home. I was going to talk without being afraid of making some grammatical mistakes. But I was also extremely sad, because I knew what I would have to leave behind. I didn’t want the last week to end.

‘Cause what you’re leaving behind is not a country. It is not the people. It is the experience. Leaving after your exchange means it will never be that way again. You can come back, but you won’t have to take that bus to go to school. You can’t text your exchange friends anymore to see if they want to hang out with you. Even with your host family it will be different, because you will probably never live with them anymore.

I know this thought is extremely terrifying. It is also really sad. I would give anything I could to go back to my exchange year, however shitty it was at times. I now realize that it was great. It had its charm and I cherish all memories I have from that time. I think I still start 70% of my stories with “During my exchange year...”, which is probably annoying the crap out of the people around me, but I don’t care - because it was amazing.

I was extremely afraid of going home. I had a lot of scenarios in my head of what could go wrong. How people wouldn’t understand me. But it wasn’t bad at all. It was great to be back home. There were so many little things that I had forgotten about that I could enjoy now. I often say it was the best year of my life and it sure was without a doubt. But life has much more to offer, but in many ways your exchange is extremely unique and memorable.

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​Porto Alegre

Imorgon åker jag hem till Sverige! Har spenderat mina sista dagar i huvudstaden utav rio grande do sul, Porto Alegre. Shopping & mat som vanligt haha, älskar denna staden!


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Piratuba

Denna helgen har jag varit i staten Santa Catarina, i Piratuba, och halsat pa familjen Palla.
Familjen Palla ar familjen till Bruno som bor i mitt hus just nu i Sverige. Sa hans familj ville att jag skulle komma och halsa pa dom innan jag aker hem till Sverige. Dom har ett sommarhus i Piratuba sa vi akte dit, min host familj och traffade dom dar, jag tog aven med mig Maike for att gora mig salskap. Vad som ar specielt med Piratuba ar att dom har pooler som ar naturelt uppvarmda utav en vulkan som ar dar, sa poolerna har ca 30-40 grader, bade inomhus och utomhus. Vi har aven spelat bowling, shoppat, provat pa nya matratter, tagit foton med papegojor och en massa andra saker.


Nu ar det bara en vecka kvar innan jag aker hem till Sverige. Tar flyget pa Lordag morgon och kommer hem Sondag kvall!


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mer än 300 dagar i Brasilien.. & bara 11 dagar tills jag åker tillbaka till Sverige.

denna helgen har vi varit i Santa Maria, sista gången som alla utbytesstudenterna träffades.


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Denna helgen har min vän Maike från Tyskland kommit & hälsat på mig, hon bor i en stad ca 4 timmar ifrån mig här i Brasilien.

På fredagen så gick vi & kollade på en show.

Andra dagen på lördagen gick vi till en bar som heter Hooks.

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Dag 9.

Sista dagen idag.. Inatt flyger alla hem till sina städer..

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dag 8.

Imorse så simmade & klappade vi rosa delfiner.. vilket var jätteläskigt men ändå jätteroligt!
Efter det så badade vi i amazonas floden igen, paddlade & massa olika aktiviteter i vattnet.
På kvällen så åkte vi till en till indianstam, där vi hade en fotbollsturnering.

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Dag 7.

Fick åka in på sjukhuset.. jag svimmade på grund utav att det var så varmt och jag inte hade druckigt något.

Alltså inget alvarligt haha, ska tillbaka till båten imorgon redan tror jag.

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Dag 5.

Imorse så vaknade vi upp väldigt tidigt för att åka ut med kanoter & fiska pirajor.. Vilket inte gick så himla bra haha, vi fångade en bara.. Jag trodde jag fick napp, men det var bara en gren som fastnade i min krok.
När vi kom tillbaka så åt vi frukost & badade från båten.
Senare på dagen så åkte vi ut med kanoterna igen för att leta efter sengångare, efter en timmes letande hittade vi två stycken på samma ställe, med vars en liten baby sengångare på magen..

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Dag 4.

Idag har vi gjort många saker, dagen började med att besöka en Indianstam, vilket var som en helt annan värld.. träffade en tjej som var 13 år och hon var redan gravid & gift.. pratade med några killar som aldrig har sett en bil..
Efter detta så badade vi i amazonas floden, med delfiner, krokodiler och pirraor.. som tur var så såg vi bara delfiner..
senare på kvällen när solen började gå ner åkte vi ut med våra små båtar på krokodil jakt, vi hittade 4 stycken, och jag fick hålla i en utav dom.
Idag har varit riktigt annorlunda och en jätterolig dag! Amazonas är absolut helt otroligt!

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