I was almost 13 when I started to question my sexuality. I started to be more interested in girls, and so I thought about it for a while. I told my friends that I was bisexual, and most of them supported me. One of my friends wasn't very accepting at first, but we talked it out. She's very religious and she told me that it just seemed strange to her because she wasn't used to the idea at all, and I completely understand that. Now she accepts me for whoever I choose to love, but she moved away a couple of months ago, so we don't speak much anymore. Another friend that I had didn't accept me at all. He said that "gay" people are disgusting, and he didn't even take me seriously when I tried to explain to him how I felt. That's one of the the many reasons we aren't friends anymore, and I might get back to that later, or I won't. Anyway, it took a while for me to figure out that I wasn't bisexual. Of course, bisexuality was the main thought, since I didn't know of any other sexualities, which I do now. Now that I have more knowledge about sexual orientation, I've figured out that I'm actually pansexual. Pansexuality means that you can be romantically and/or sexually attracted to people of any sex or gender identity. Some people ask "But isn't that the same thing as bisexuality?" It isn't. When you're bisexual you can be attracted to both male and female individuals, but the two sexes are not all genders. There are more genders than two, and pansexuals can be attracted to any of them.

I'm not "officially out", but I'm not in the closet either. I've told my friends about my sexuality, as you know, and when my mom found out she didn't believe it. She's very sceptical about that stuff, but I think it's because she doesn't have much knowledge of it. If anyone asks what my sexual orientation is, I tell them the truth, but I'll never shout through the halls that I'm pansexual. I just don't give a damn.

This is the pansexual flag.

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I feel like I've wasted my youth. I don't have any hobbies, I rarely go out with friends, and in three years I'm moving away from home. When I was a kid I didn't have many friends, and I only wanted to sit inside to draw or write. I guess my parents didn't do a lot of activities with me. As I grew up I only watched TV all day, and then when I got a computer I sat with that all day. Now I still sit in my room everyday after school until I go to bed. I feel like I should've done more wild things, or experience more things that teenagers are supposed to experience. Not very much happens when you sit inside all day. I've always wanted to go to a haunted house, so I've planned to do so with two of my friends this sunday. I have to be honest, it's probably not a haunted house, but my friend says it's very creepy. It's outside of town in the woods, and she's been there once. She says that you first come to a barn, with creepy old furniture. Then you follow a path to an old house with no electricity. We've planned to bring cameras to film and take pictures. I really want to investigate and see if there is anything creepy or useful to find there. I hope that we'll find something interesting.

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