I've been dreaming about getting high again. After all this time, sort of woke up with a head fuck I didn't need. Chased it for a bit too, perhaps I just miss being happy or numb.
Maybe there is no difference.
Maybe I just want to run away. Hide from where I am.
I don't know.
This isn't happy and sometimes I wonder if I ever am happy except for then.
But is that real?