I moved to London because I wanted a change. I wanted to experience what it was like to live and work here. The times I've been visiting my hometown, alot of people have asked "So you're back? Didn't it go as you wanted? Didn't you succeed?". People who've never even asked me why I moved here. People that I'm not friends with. People who is irrelevant to me and my life.

Before I moved people asked for how long I was gonna stay here. Maybe 2 months, maybe forever.

I found everything I could have wished for and more here. I have met people who have changed my life and thought me so many things. I have met people who made me realize what I want, need and deserve. I have met some of the kindest people I've ever met (big shoutout to Thimmy and Nats) and I've met psychopats that have teached me on or two lessons..

It was scary to move here. To leave everything for a counrty where you didn't know anyone or knew what was going to happen. The thought of moving back to Sweden is just as scary. I have my life here now. But I feel more calm and happy of the idea to leave. We are all responsible of our happiness. And a completly different life is just one decision away. I am not happy here anymore. I am done with London. I think it's about time to wrap this chapter up and begin the next one. For me, happiness would be to spend the summer with my family and friends. And as I write this, I think I'm 99% sure of what is going to happen the next 24 hours.

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Another day

Went central today to buy some acrylic paint and a dress at H&M. On my way home a man sat down next to me and picked up his sketches. We started talking about art, he showed me some of his work and I showed him some of mine. He has been working as an artist since he was 19 and today he had been sitting around Westminister for inspiration. He said some things that I will carry with me for a long time. It's wierd how a total stranger sometimes can inspire and make you believe in yourself more than people close to you can. I'm one of those who believes everything happens for a reason, and this was one those moments. Probably the first time in a year that I said It was nice to meet you and actually meant it.

I have never really believed in myself, and I've never really given myself a chance to. I've always given up long before I've started something. I always think there is no reason to anything (careerwise) because there is always someone who is better or way more successful. I know other people has the same thoughts aswell, which is a shame. But you have to start somewhere. You don't t wake up one day and success is delivered to your door. I think what I'm most scared of is failing or making mistakes. But I'm realizing that the only way to be succesful at what you do is to believe in yourself and take chances. It might go damn good, or it might go damn straight wrong. So what if it does? Then you know what doesn't work and you're one step closer to what might do. I also believe it's very important that you surrond yourself with people who believes in you and supports you. I had someone in my life that made me feel stupid about the things I felt passioned about. I had enough and I had to cut that person out. The people you invest your time in are not supposed to make you feel bad about yourself.

I'm jealous of people who knew what they wanted to do when they were 18-20. But then again I'm grateful I didn't know because all the choices I've made for the last 6 years have made me to who I am today. Thank god I dropped out of university when I was ~22. I was studying something just for the sake of doing it, I felt like I had to. And I can say now that it was way better to actually be lost and just winging it for years til I actually found two things I'm actually passioned about, than to work with something I couldn't care less about.



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Food, Another day

Today has been a good day. When I woke up I felt okay today is the day to get shit done. Not normal stuff like doing laundry etc (even though I've food prepped for rest of the week), ​but important things. Had this colorful breakfast and then I was reading and researching until my eyes were bleeding, kind of. I have a vision of what I want my life to look like by the end of spring next year. I have a plan and it feels freaking amazing to know that from this day on I can work towards my goals. 

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Books

I read this book a couple of weeks ago, Brandwashed by Martin Lindstrom. Martin is a pro when it comes to marketing and he has been working with global companies like McDonald's and Microsoft. In this book he explains how brainwashed we are when it comes to brands. From all our choices we make in the grocery store to high fashion, Heinz Ketchup, Pepsi, Axe (lynx), iPhone, you name it) You know when you think you think different and think "Oh I'm not gonna be fooled by this, they didn't get me this time", well they did. It is so much psychology behind every commercial and marketing strategy. This book gives you the insight of what's really going on and it will enlighten you big time. After you've read this book, you can a step back when you're about to buy something and ask yourself - is this really what I want? We will never get 100% immune against marketing, thats just the way it is. It's everywhere and we will get affected one way or another. But as I said, this book will make you think 1 or 10 exra times when it comes to shopping and making decisions.

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Important

The response from my post about environment and animals was quite what I expected - basically people asking " oh, so you're a vegetarian now?" and act wierd around me when it comes to food, lol. Except from my sister and best friend, no one said anything positive about it and me wanna make this world a better place.. And I kind of get that, because those people doesn't have enough knowledge about what's really going on, or simple doesn't want to know (me a month ago).

So, to make all of this a bit more clear. I choose to go vegetarian because of the environment. The sake of killing animals for meat is cruel, but that's not my main reason. So back to environment. The animal production is the cause for almost 15% of the world's total greenhouse gas. Plus the deforestation of the growing need of pastures and cropland for animal feed and the agricultures emission of the methane cattle emit trough their digestive - it comes up to almost 25% of the world's total greenhouse gas. Thats a quarter of it all. It's more than transports plus building new buildings in total. It's more than industry.

Now people come with the most stupid arguments. For example The human kind have been eating meat since before B.c. The world is slightly different now though. Back in 1000 there was 310 million people. 1950 there was 2,5 billions. Today it's about 7 billions. And the number continues to rise. By 2100 we will be around 11 billions. Today we have a massproduction of everything that including animals like cows, pigs, chicken and fish. If we continue to eat like most of us to do today, can you imagine what the animal production and deforestation will like in 2100? Can you imagine how much that will damage this world? It makes me extremly frustrated. Another example is I need meat for protein. All I can do is to take a deap breath and roll my eyes. Get on your phone and google for protein sources. Problem solved. But I can't live without ham on my sandwich!! I can't live without a good steak!! If that is what makes your life worth living then maybe you're a miserable f*ck.

That's all for today people. I'm going to make myself a cup of coffe with almond mild, go out and read a book.

Sources: wwf, livsmedelverket and peta.


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Quorn, mushrooms, tomatoes, spinach, lentils, avocado & hummus.

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The view we had from the room was absolutly stunning. We were staying at Paris, in a Burgundy room. One view was over the airport and the other one was over the strip.

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I have always been one of those who thought they could never go vegetarian or vegan. Or to care about animal testing. Or even think twice about the environment, global warming etc..Truth is I didn't want to care. I wanted to live in a careless world because one day I will die, so what's the point? Like I knew animals were being killed because I wanted that leatherbag (like my DVF bag). I knew chickens were being raised, abused and killed because I like their meat. I knew that Antarctic is melting because I just freaking love to have all the lights and electronic devices on all the time even though I don't need it. I didn't want to give a shit about any of this because global warming won't happen to me, and I can't see a future where I have children - so why should I care? Why should I care about other generations?

First of all. I want to give myself a proper hard slap in the face. What the hell was I thinking? For the last 24 hours I have been researching and reading my ass off. I'm far from done, but from what I've read - I'm freaking scared of human beings. We are one terrible piece of art. Basically (and ironically), when I was on the flight home from Vegas I was watching a few movies. One of them was Before the flood, I thought Hmm let me have a look, Leonardo DiCaprio is kind of hot. One and a half later I was sitting there. Shocked. How silly it may sund but that movie was what I needed. It was my game changer.

So thank you Leo for changing my mind about pretty much everything, and also for being very attractive.

Second of all. "Why should I care about other generations?" Slap in the face again - big time. Hello Jennifer, in case you forgot you have two younger siblings that means the world to you. You have an older sister who may have kids one day. Your best friend recently had a son. What abut them, eh? You may not care about yourself that much but they deserve all the best this would can give.

Third of all. Animals. When I was in Vegas I was looking at a coat. A coat made of bunny fur. Omg it's soo soft. Slap. In. My. Face. What did these cute little bunnies do to me? What if someone would slaughter me and my friends becuase someone wanted a nice coat. NO. Same with animal tested products. NO.

So after hours of reading today I look around in my room and in my drawers I feel sick. All those pretty MAC lipsticks, trendy Tom Ford fragrances, so very soft makeup brushes. All tested on animals. Even my freaking hair removal cream from Veet!!! How insane is that? Can you believe Veet actuallt paid an animal testing company to see how it reacted? How f*ucking sick isn't that? All the makeup I have is insane, and it used to be worse. DO I really need all this? No freaking way. I have at least 20 lipsticks, and do you know how many of these I actually use? Not more than three.

Am I gonna completly stop shopping now? No I am not. I am still human. But I am going to cut out alot of things. I won't support any animal tested products. Omg Jen you can't know all the brands that gave been tested on animals! Yes I can, it is this easy. And when it comes to clothes, shoes etc - just buy what I need. Do I really need that pair of high heels? No, I don't. At the moment I have at least 3 pair that still has the price tag. And when it comes to how things are made and how the employees rights and no child workers etc, is something I need to read more about.

Food. Bye meat, just bye. I'm not a big fan of meat. I only eat chicken because it's goot protein. I mostly eat prawns. With my lovely ignorance wall I've put up with for all these years I know this is bad, but I don't know why (more research). But bye. From today on I am going vegetarian. Will it be hard? I don't think so. I think it's just the habbit of chosing it in the lunch canteen or in the grocery store. And when it comes to palmoil? Sayo-freaking-nara. Why? Just watch this video.

I used to think well the product is already on the market so I might aswell buy it, it's not gonna make any difference. It does. A few years back, me and my family went to a chinese restaurant near where I used to live. They have this amazing mongolian buffet where they offer giant prawns, mhm how delicious I thought I put alot of it on my plate. My uncle made a comment about it, what I don't remember. And I said something like what I mentioned before "Well it's already there" and he said "It is about creating a demand of it". I still remember that. I have my new Chanel lipstick right beside my laptop - one of the ingredients is Ascorbyl palmitate (palm oil) and it has been tested on animals. And my new lovely pink color that I'm wearing on my nails has also been tested on animals. Yes, it was already on the counter - so why not buy it? Well, after it's gone from the counter they will need to order more from it. Other people will also buy it. More palm oil wll be used. More innocent animals will get hurt. Me plus you guys are creating a demand of this products which also sends a messages to the companies that we are absolutly fine with their bullshit. But no. No more.

Does this mean I will throw away all the products I have? No. I will probably use it. But I will not buy it again. And if I am posting a picture of my makeup or whatever then I will mention what product it is, explain why you should not buy it and what similar product there is instead.

I could write about this all night, but I will stop here - for today. There is soooo many things both you and I can change, and I will. It is such a cliche but everyone can do something. And we have to. Right now.


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Got back to London this morning. The jet lag have been killing me all day, but I've made it through and it is soon time for bed. It has been a great week with lots of shopping, food and sun. More pictures will come..

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Had a stroll through Green Park and Hyde Park yesterday. Ended up at Harrods somehow.. Found this simple yet lovely bag from Diane Von Furstenberg. Today I did my nails, a bright red color will be perfect for Vegas.

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