Can't believe I missed writing yesterday!!!
I was so tired and talked to Hanna late so I just fell asleep...
Not that I did much at all yesterday. I called mom and for the first time in 2 months I broke down in tears.
I am a very emotional person but I haven't showed that to no one in two months...
I don't feel that comfortable here to show it and I don't want to make it harder then it already is at home so I've basically just sucked it up and been happy. It doesn't make me weak to cry because I miss home. Of course I miss home. Never been away this long ever so yes it's hard.

Well now I have to get ready, leaving in 35 min so I'll write tonight.

See ya mate!

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Well this morning my lovely friend Evelyn called me so I spent new year agin ;) when they had their midnight in Sweden I was with them on FaceTime!!! It was wonderful. I must say that I'm enormous blessed with friends and family like that!

Today was one of those days when you just prefer to be alone. I watched some series and I wrote today. I manage to get one poem together, well almost I'm not all happy with the end but oh well. And I also wrote just for fun. Like a story but not. Just wrote stuff from my mind and they had no point at all but it felt so good!!

I watched the new movie Pan earlier this evening and I must say after all that it was a good movie :)
I also watched pride and prejudice, I love that movie and I did get reminded of why I ever said I want a man like mr Darcy. Haha this might get awkward depending on who's reeding it but I will stand for it. It was a good day after all I just needed time for myself most of the day.

See ya mate!

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Busy day. Got up pretty early and went with Greg to the store :) yes I did some shopping :$ couldn't help it :o oh well.
After the shopping it was just home, shower, fix and then we headed to the neighbours to celebrate new year with them.

This was one different new year for me :o
Most people don't even do fire works. They just look at them at tv. We're I am at kenaf, this is one big country so I don't want to say to much. Basically, if you aren't in Sydney watching the fire works you are watching the fire works from Sydney on tv x)
I had a good day and evening.
We played sing star, yes I did sing. Three times!!!! Greg pushed me witch was good. I was that girl before, then I lost that some how. I got to were I was afraid about making a fool out of myself. Guess what? I suck at sing star but I had a awesome time!!! It was fun. Best way to leave 2015. Laughing. I will leave my stupid pride crap. It's time to live and it's okay for people to laugh at you. Well I'm sure that the most times I ever thought that it probably wasn't at me at all. I'm done being afraid being foolish. I am foolish, I'm full of energy.

Last new year my new year resolution was this three things
1: graduate with grades I was proud of
2: get driving license
3: make my dream trip come true

I can proudly say all of them came true :D

For this year I haven't really thought about it to much. I will make this year count. I mean there of ours is things but for me that's something I'm striving for every day. Stuff like "be me more, better relationship with God" sort of.

I'll sleep on it cuz I'll celebrate new year tomorrow morning to with my Swedish friends at their midnight ;)

See ya mate and happy new year!

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Today was a long sleep, well I talked to Hanna and Evelyn to so I left bed at 1 pm XP did some breakfast if I even can call it that. Or did I call them first after breakfast? I don't remember... I think I called them after breakfast so I did basically sleep to about 12.30 :p my memory is so good x)

Well anyhow, at three or around that time I went out ^^ didn't have any plan for what I should do but I walked out. Sam wanted to go out in the bush but I don't dare to alone :o when I walked out and to where Greg ware he said I could grab duke and we could train him :D
So I did, and today and yesterday I've been sitting a lot on the fence analysing and watching Greg train. Yesterday I filmed it ^^
I did some of it but not the free longing. It's interesting to just watch and I learn.

That's basically my day x)

See ya mate!

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I GOT MY PACKAGE FROM SWEDEN TODAY!!!!
From my beloved family ^^ and the letter from my grandparents :D it was Christmas greetings so they were supposed to come before Christmas but I don't really care. I got it now and that's all that matters ;)

I got Swedish candy ;) awesomeness in a box is what I got :o
I did cry some tears but they were joy ^^

And then Greg and me did some training with duke to. I filmed most of it so I won't forget and so I can study the teknik he uses and take with me back to Sweden :) it's hard things but I'm positive I will get it and even if not everything sticks I have some keys that will help me make a awesome horse home ^^

See ya mate!

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I forgot to write yesterday :o
Sorry :p not that I think any of you care but I do. This is my journal about my days so I can look back and see ^^

I didn't actually do anything. I was home alone and had dance party ;) it was so good to let it all out! I'm not shy and quiet I'm crazy and weird and I was that when I had my dance party. I was crazy and weird and just didn't care. Like it should be. And I realised that Appel tv is the best!!!! I can connect my phone and iPad to the tv so guess if I had fun with snapchat ;) haha it was fun and good for me. I actually danced like I never had before :o I mean yes I danced in Sweden when I was alone but nothing like this :o I don't know what happen I just were everywhere and had fun ^^
I might have made bigger progress then I thought? God is working with me and I know that ^^ I'm excited what he can make of me :D

I'll write later about this day ;)

See ya mate!

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Was at church this morning and today it was pastor Ian Zerna that preached. It was really good and I do really like listening to him!! He get so excited and the way he gets it is just a big inspiration!!!

He preached about that we enter the way we leave. So if I leave this year depressed so will I enter the next. Choose wisely!
He talked about that you shouldn't be afraid you should just believe. Don't feel fear, feel faith.

He talked about that even though I will thank God. So even though it didn't go my way I will thank God. Even though when I'm broken hearted I will thank God. Even though I'm on the bottom I will thank God. Those words were strong to me. Even though I will thank God! I will prise him, when you prise you rise.

A fun thing, I thought, that he said was "if you steer inwoods instead of upwoods you go downwoods" so if you start to take the credit to yourself instead of giving it to God you will end up going the wrong direction. You will go "down" instead of up. Everything I have is thanks to God and he should have all the credit. Without him I wouldn't even be on this earth!

A part of one of the songs, that I love, they had today was "I believe in God our father, I believe in Christ his son, I believe in the Holy Spirit, our God is three in one"
Absolutely love it!! It's stuck in my head to, which I don't mind ;)

Bed time for me now :D

See ya mate!

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For this year Christmas is over and I can't wait to the next one!!! When I get to be with my family again ^^ have for me a real Christmas.
Today was a typical movie day, well I talked to my soulmate for 2 hours this morning or not really morning I ate breakfast at 1 pm today :p talked to hanna before that :) then it was raining so it was a typical movie day ^^ it's hard now, I miss home a lot, friends and family but I know it's a part I'll get trough as soon the new year have started!

New Year's Eve will be so different but it one day, one night. I will make it and it will be worth it in the end :)
To get a good outcome you have to have som struggles ^^ in my opening.
And it's crazy, last new year my new year resolutions was to get my driving license and to make my dream trip happened which ofc was to go to Australia. Look at me now? I'm in Australia and yes I got my driving license!!! Successful year. A lot more then that have happened but we'll take that another time ;) it's been a good year and when you really think about it you almost tear up. There is so much and for me, it's now so easy to remember everything, even the small everyday things since I'm not in it anymore ^^

Grateful is a good word!

See ya mate!

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I have had my first Christmas.
My first Christmas without my family
My first Christmas in summer
My first Christmas without Christmas tree at home
My first Christmas when I haven't bought presents
My first Christmas with people I bearly know
My first Christmas without Christmas spirit
My first Christmas without Donald Duck at 3 pm
My first Christmas whiteout all the candy and cookies everywhere
So this was sort of my first Christmas
In many ways it was

I had a good day and very thankful that they let me be a part of it. It was different I must say but I'm a Swedish girl, having Christmas in Australia and almost only English tradition. That's a bit funny I must say.

So I got up, fixed myself and we headed away to dawns sister :) we got there and also a lot of other people, relatives and so on. We had turkey for lunch, with mashed potatoes and a lot of vegetables. It was incredible tasty!!!
The dessert that was some odd cake (forgot what it's called but something in Spanish I think that meant 1000 layers, not surly there but a person brought it with them so) and then another cake I have forgotten and ice cream :)
Present opening after that and then just chill until dinner that was ham, bread, salad :) tasty!
End then the highlight of my day!!! It was another dessert and O.M.G is all I can say. I ate a pice of haven today. Not even kidding! It was an ice cream cake, so she had a ice cream cake with three layers and she had mixed the layers her self. First layer was vanilla ice cream with white chocolate and raspberries, second layer was vanilla ice cream with MALTHESERS!!, last layer was chocolate ice cream with snickers bar in it. It was just amazing!!

Oh a fun thing they do, so when you get your food you take a sort of present and when you sit down to eat you let the person next to you pull one end and you the other and this present opens and out of it comes a crown, a joke and a toy. I found that pretty fun ^^

I actually got two presents to :o I got a pair of earrings and a gift card at a mall it far from me :)

Very odd Christmas for me but I'm happy, I now have done it and can say that a Christmas without family or close friends is not something I necessarily won't do again XP

A bit worried about new year I must say.

Oh well, merry Christmas ❤️

See ya mate!

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I know, for Swedes and normal for me Christmas is today the 24th but here it's 25th so I have Christmas tomorrow ^^

I don't have the Christmas spirit but I feel like I'm missing it, I don't feel like I have it but like I'm outside looking and seeing it's Christmas so I just feel like I'm completely missing one whole Christmas :o

Today I was babysitting Ollie. It was fun and yes I took pictures but I won't upload them since he's not my kid or family member even if he feels like my brother ;)
When I got home I helped Greg wrap some presents for tomorrow :)
We will leave in the morning and I will force myself to take a lot of pictures!!! I have to!!

My parents and my brother and my sister sent me money today, I was close to cry like a baby!!! That made me miss home a lot, my family and everything. Our traditions. I remember last Christmas extremely well right now and I must say it do hurt a but.

Well, I have to shake it off! It's one Christmas, only one and I get to experience a hot Christmas!! They are predicting around 30 degrees tomorrow :o it's worth missing one Christmas to experience one like this ^^

Merry Christmas my loved ones❤️🎄🎅🏼

See ya mate!

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