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Hallooo. I thought I had lost all motivation for blogging for a while and I actually have, although I wanted to make an update for myself so I can look back on this.

I'm currently in Sunny Beach, Bulgaria and flew her the 13th of May. Had my first shift behind the bar at Den Glade Viking the 20th of May when we opened the Chillout-bar. Six days later I had two guests land on me behind the bar as they were dancing on the bar, which resulted in two broken toes. Wonderful start of the season, right?!

Anyways, I was sent to hospital in Bourgas the next day where I had surgery and stayed there for three days, so now I have two implants in my foot. One of them is on the bone and the other one sticks out from the foot and I can feel it if I jump on the other leg. I will have it removed 30 days after the surgery so I'm actually counting down the days. And after 50 days I'll be able to walk normally again, according to the doctors.

I will not be working behind the bar during the nights for quite some time now (probably 50 days...) so I'll be doing dayshifts instead where I serve our promoters alcohol. That means no guests will see me working. I'm on crutches right now as well. Sad thing is that I've gotten wounds from it and can't even wear a bra because it hurts. I'm doing my best to stay positive, even though it really is a challenge for me as I see everyone so happy and are able to move around as they want. But I know that from now on, I can only get better.

I'd just like to give a big, fat THANK YOU to everyone who has helped me through this, and sent me their regards. I'm truly thankful for all of your help and I don't know what I would do without you. I believe you all know who you are, so I'm not going to mention anyone.

Bless xx

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Hiya. I got to work and spent 5-10 minutes in the office today and then went home again, because I almost passed out twice on my way there. For those who know me, know that I pass out every now and then and I've spent a shitload of hours at the hospital trying to figure out why. So when I got there I was completely drained on energy. I had no powers in my whole body and I just wanted to lay down and sleep.

I got home, slept for 4-5 hours straight and then binge-watched Empire. Now it's time to hit the showers and hope that this won't happen tomorrow again. Bless xx

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Wazza. I called in sick this morning as I'm feeling like shit so I've basically just been laying in bed all day watching series. I've finally started catching up with The Vampire Diaries again and my God, it's so exciting!!! My piercing is itching as hell too, but it's probably just because it's healing.

Oh btw, I've also made an appointment for a life changer for me. What it is, you'll have to see after the 31st of March hehe. People who know me will understand.

Otherwise, my diet's going well I'd say. It's very difficult for me to control what I eat since I love food so much but, I've become better from this! I don't know how much weight I've lost yet but I can definitely see results already which keeps me more motivated :) Bless xx

Btw, old picture. I do not look this fresh when I'm sick, haha.

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Woop. I've gotten a lot of things done today even though I've been at work. Had an appointment in Sweden so had to go back in the middle of work, and since I've finally gotten my Danish salary I've bought a flight ticket, booked an appointment for Saturday to FINALLY get my belly button pierced (yes, you read it right) and to top it of, I did a little shopping for the coming summer :)

I've also started my new diet today and will be doing it for three weeks just to see results and if it's good, I might keep doing it. The alternative is to switch to another diet where I can eat less but also things I like and combine it with workout.

Tomorrow awaits another day of work and then a bar meeting with Bar Gruppen in Cph. Bless xx

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Another successful night out in Copenhagen this Friday. Another bar shift at Aloha and another cozy Sunday at Jonna's. Good weekend even though drunk Maria crossed some lines that she shouldn't have. There's nothing I can do about it so let's just move on, ey?

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Hiya. Both Anna and I have been feeling so stressed this week due to our cpr-numbers not arriving yet, but today was actually a good day. We were told that we needed to get a bank account THIS WEEK in order to get our salary this month (and for that we need the cpr-numbers...). Luckily, I got mine yesterday and hopefully Anna will get hers tomorrow. I went to the bank yesterday and as I got there they told me I needed to book an appointment to get a bank account (or that I could apply for one online, so I did and got it today).

Everything has been so frustrating and complicated lately and it's been draining me on so much energy. But what I WILL look forward to is getting this month's salary and also that I'm treating myself with a new computer at the end of the month. Which one it'll be you may or may not find out later. It's about time though since mine's about to die and also too big and heavy to travel with.

Again, nothing really interesting but I'm also just updating for myself so :) Bless xx

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Hiya. Just wanted to make an update for my future self in case I'd like to look back. After all, that is why I'm writing my blog, haha.

So I'm currently working in Copenhagen and Malmö but will from the 6th of February only be working in Copenhagen. Working as a bartender at a Hawaii-inspired bar and will be working in a Customer Care Center soon together with one of my Swedish colleagues from Sunny Beach as well. It's going pretty good for me right now and I can't wait for the day I'm actually moving to this city.

I'm going to have to wait with that for a while though because of different reasons, but I think this year is going to be amazing if it just keeps up like this! I've just applied for a cpr-number (Danish personal identity number) and all those things you need to be working in Denmark so you might as well call me Danish soon... Kidding of course ;)

Bless xx

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I'm about to write something that has made a huge impact on me as a person and the fact that I'm scared to be alone at all times. I'm not writing for pity, I'm writing because I want to get this off my chest since it's not something I usually tell people. I'm done with fighting this on my own even though I have to, but maybe it's good for people to know as well.

It all started in 2013 when I was getting a haircut (!) before prom and graduation. I stood up for some time while the hairdresser was cutting my long hair, and then all of a sudden I couldn't breath. There was a loud beep in my ears the whole time and I felt like I had to throw up. I was sweating a lot. And I almost fell, so she had to stop cutting my hair and get me to sit down and get me some water. I thought I'd been standing up for too long so that's probably why it happened.

It kept coming back, without a warning and within a minute I could be lying on the floor all passed out.

The scariest moment was when I was going home from a friend in Helsingborg. I was waiting for the train down at the platform and I felt it coming. Again - couldn't breath, loud noises in my ears, started sweating, the feeling to throw up and the dizziness in my head as well. I went to grab my water bottle in my bag but I was too slow and just passed out like that. I fell from just standing and I was laying down on the dirty stone floor. Fortunately, I didn't hurt myself more than a bump on the head.

A man and his girlfriend touched me gently and asked "Hello? Are you okay? Should we call someone?". I gave them my phone to call my dad because right after it happens I'm so weak and my muscles aren't working - and I'm exhausted for the rest of the day. A man who was taking the same train followed me and sat by me to make sure I was okay until I came home. Dad picked me up at the train station and when I went into the car I cried so much. I was terrified this might kill me, and that's when I had enough. What if I had passed out when I was about to board the train and fell down right before it arrived to the platform? I'd be dead.

We went to the hospital and I had to wait for hours. Right there, they couldn't do anything so they sent me a paper of when I had a new time for investigations. Since I had planned my bartending course in NYC that fall, I had to wait 4-5 months before they could do one of the tests on me. Before I went to NYC I had these electrodes all over my chest for 48 hours to do an ECG test (where they check for problems of the activitity of the heart) and I had to report everything I did and ate etc.

The other test happened and I almost passed out during it and found out my blood pressure is usually really low. You pass out at 60, and mine is at 95-100 normally. To my disappointment they told me "we think you handle your faintings good yourself so there's nothing we can really do".....

At that time I was a vegetarian so we started speculating whether it was the food or what it could be. Maybe I didn't get enough protein or certain vitamins. Even though I hated just the thought of it, I began to eat meat again and it disappeared for a long time. And now it's back again. It happened in Philippines at my uncle's funeral, it happened in Sunny Beach as well and since I was really drunk, I ran away crying, not being able to breath and my boss went after me. He asked me what happened and why I haven't told them before. Honestly I didn't think it would happen and I felt so ashamed drawing so much attention when there were loads of people around and I was a drunk, crying mess.

It happened yesterday as well in the metro from Copenhagen to the Copenhagen Airport so I had to sit down. All the time on my way home to Malmö from my first bar shift in Copenhagen - I couldn't breath, and that usually never happens. I was scared and called my dad and today I told him I wanted to investigate this again. I can not cope with this. It takes too much energy and I want to be able to live my life without being afraid of being alone because it might actually happen.

Losing all control of your body isn't really funny when you're at someone's party, or a funeral or just on a vacation. And definitely not when you're at work.

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I know I've been very absent, but I honestly think that after seven years of blogging it's okay. Most of what's happened in my life right now is I've been spending a lot of time with Jonna, both at her place and at Stereo Bar in Copenhagen. And then I've been to Philippines and I think you all know why by now. Otherwise, I've been working and actually been to lazy to update. Especially when there's not much to update about.

A couple of weeks ago I wasn't sure whether to continue blogging or not. I feel like I've been doing it for such a long time now and I don't really have the time for it anymore. It's definitely not a priority nowadays due to work, series, workout and my social life.

I'm not going to close it though. I'll let it be open for whenever I do have time for it and when I have something I want to update about. I'll just let you know that as you've noticed it's not going to be updated very often, sad to say.

ANYWAYS! Today all the bartending ladies from Viking in Sunny have a Christmas Dinner in Copenhagen and then we'll meet the gentlemen at Stereo Bar. Been longing for this day so long now. Going to be crazy and I need this. Bless xx

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