sorry i was gone for so long. i am back. i had to work with myself. had to be left alone to think. school is crazy so i am trying my best to pass the tests. it isnt working that well. but yea
sorry for not posting here for a while. my life is pretty much falling appart with each second;
i am failing at school and the teachers are saying ill be held back a year. my parents are in stress already so i dont want to stress them out more by saying i am failing at school. the need to self harm is pretty big. it is so hard to have good grades in school but i will try no matter what cause i dont want to let my family down.
so my internet friend was a liar. she lied to all of us. she then stole our friends boyfriend! that is not a friend thing to do. now she is trying to destroy us. and we found out that the people we hated were only like that to us cause our friend turned them against us!
u know what i just realised? the bullies are just people who are jealous of something u have but they dont. i will keep singing and i will keep dancing. my bully made fun of me dancing and singing. 1) the dance was contemporary 2)they have no taste in art 3)my mom is a singer and so is my dad. they teach me how to sing and they tell me i have a good voice. 4) fuck em bullies.
i always get told that i have a great voice. the only problem is my phone - if i record a cover video on it it sounds weird...i posted a singing video on my fan acc for Isac Elliot singing what about me and people liked it but then my classmates found it...and so did my bullies! now they are making fun of me and all i wanna do now is delete the video and never sing again! i hate life...i dont even like my own voice. when i was younger my music teacher told me that i cant sing and that ill never be a singer so i stopped singing... i feel like all my dreams of what i wanna do are always destroyed by someone
it makes me upset that my internet friends dont respond. they are my bestfriends but idek anymore. it hurts to know that my friends dont wanna talk with me. when i asked whats wrong they just decided to attack me. why is the world so against me?! what did i do wrong? am i on my own in this world??? who knows...i probably wont feel anything soon. i am used to people ditching me and ignoring me. i think ill just focus on my YT channel and people that go to my school. recently i have been noticing that the people from highschool are talking to me more...they are older than me but they are better than no friends...i just miss my bestfriend Emily...she knows alot about me but she moved away.
i hate the feeling of being by myself. i miss talking to people and having fun.
hi...haven't posted anything in a while. school is crazy. my mom keeps reminding me that if i don't have good grades she'll take my phone away...and i can't let that happen cuz if it does how will i survive ?! i may sound dramatic but it's true.
i have to communicate with people. not the best thing in the world. i am really awkward so i can't stand talking with other people. today at school some guys from highschool came to talk to me and i was being pretty awkward. ugh whyyyyyy. my communication skills died when my best friends moved away. i hate talking with people face to face cuz it just seems really awkward to me!
so sorry that i havent been here to update my blog...was buisy... hopefully i will be able to get back on track with my YouTube videos
last night i got my schedule and got to meet all my teachers and now here i am...at school. TBH i missed this place quite alot. i dont know what i would do if i would be homeschooled.
it is hard to make people smile when you dont smile.
anyways...today is gonna be fun. i need to find a camera and its charger and then i need to start filming my video. i really want to do a giveaway but that will only happen if i get to 100 subbies till September.
life goal-never grow up.
this is pretty damn random...idek what to post today LMAO
i might post later but i dont know about it...dont wanna do depressing stuff.
i just realised summer is about to end and that sucks.