My former roommate posted a status the other day about society judging women because of their weight. I have read her status over and over again and after each time I have had different feelings about it. Sometimes I feel sad. Sad because I can relate to her. I have not been through what she is going through but I do have my own problems with my weight.
The second emotion I feel is anger, anger because I dont understand why people and myself are so fast with judging when a person gains weight. Most people directly assume that something is going on with that person. She or he is not happy or not doing well.
The last emotion I feel is disappointment. Mostly disappointed in myself. I put so much pressure on trying fulfill this perfect picture. But for who am I doing this? I actually dont know the answer to that. I cant remember last time I told anyone or myself that I'm proud of my body.
I truly believe this is such an important topic and the fact that I have been debating about posting about this made me realize that I should. I was going through my pictures so I could show you how I looked when I was bigger. But then realized that I had removed every single picture of my computer and social media... Pictures of my friends and I. Basically, the fear of being bigger and judge by gaining weight was more important than keeping pictures that had great memories...
This is her status, I wonder what emotions this will bring you:
Sleepless nights take me back to many memories; some good some bad! Watching this video makes me both happy and sad. Happy because I DID my first half marathon. Sad because many people didn't believe I could. Many of my friends used to joke and say "can you even run a mile" "someone should run behind and push you" WHY?!! Because I'm overweight. Of course they were joking, but let's be honest!! Were they REALLY joking?!? We live in a society where girls should be skinny. If a boyfriend breaks up with his overweight girlfriend, we just assume it's because she is overweight. She is no longer beautiful. No longer attractive. She no longer deserves love. It's sad but it's true.I never knew how important someone's weight was till I started gaining weight last 4 years because of my disease. It's funny how you keep telling yourself and everyone that these talks never make you uncomfortable. But deep down in your heart, you wish you could have a label on your face saying "excuse my weight gain, it's due to my health problem. Not lack of exercise or overeating." Well here is an uncomfortable topic that no overweight girl wants to talk about.But I think we should. We should not laugh at our friend's weigh jokes. We should not let anyone body shame us. And perhaps we should start wearing a label explaining our weight problem to curious people. OR we can just ignore the world and enjoy little accomplishments in life!!! Not sure how many of those that body shamed me have run half marathon, but I DID. And I WILL again!!!