A new year does not necessarily mean "a new me" but it does mean a new, blank page. A page just as blank as this blog before I fill it with my thoughts. The clock has just passed 12 and it is officially in the middle of the night I am writing this. I wonder why our thoughts seem to spin double phase when we get tired. If it is because we were created to not stay up after midnight or because it's an excellent time for writers to write. I choose to believe in the second option, because sleeping is something you can do in the day as well. At least in my world for now.
I don't think that I have ever felt so peaceful as I do this time walking in to a new year.
During 2016 I got the oppertunity to grow in myself a lot. I learned to love my own company, I realized that I had a voice that matter and most of all; that I could reconize God's voice when he so gently spoke truth over me. The growth became a fact today when I had coffee with my friend Elin. We have known each other for a bit over 3 years now and as I sat down with her and reflected on the last couple of months we have been apart I realized how different things are now. We are talking about completely different subjects now than we did in high school, for sure. Of course this has been going on for a while; how things change. And the growth.
2017 will be the year I am turning 21. I will be legal in America. Which... is not that exciting. Anyhow. I guess this means I can no longer hide behind the "teenager" sign. I will admit that I have been scared of growing up as long as I can remember. I mostly wanted to be a teenager forever in the past because that meant I could be careless forever. I could get drunk as much as I wanted to and skip out on classes as many hours a week as I felt like. For those of you who know my story, you know that this is not the case today.
I have learnt to realize that being an adult means excitement. I am such a lover of spontaneous adventures and since freedom is a word of value to me I could not be more excited about the countless oppertunities that will come with the years.
In the past I have shamed the word adult - only to now realize that adult is equal a hundred of phases I can pick and choose from where to walk. I can walk in to new adventures. I can watch Jesus unravel exciting plans that he has for me and I can become so much wiser as time walks with me. Ha!
The last two days, or maybe I should say; the first two days of this year - has been so great. Words cannot express how content I am being home right now. I am reuniting with friends. Friends that I have missed so much while being away. Gosh, friends are so great! They are like extra siblings that God has blessed us with.
I am writing, walking and reading a lot. Interests that I am finally giving myself a chance to take time for.
As a writer I long to inspire you as a reader. I want to inspire you to dare to believe that this year will be different. It sounds so clyche, I know! But here is a suggestion to you.
Pick up a pen. Buy a new journal. Open the first page. Write "2017" on top of it. Then write down your word. If you are a believer, listen to a word that God is giving you to hold on to this year. If you're not a believer - I would suggest you to even do the same. But hey, no pressure. Decide a world of hope that you promise yourself to hold on to these upcoming 365 days.
365 days are so many days of potential. Days that has the power to change your life.
I beg you. Please choose positivity over bitterness this year. Please change what you are not happy with. For some people, that would mean to start believing that you are worth the best, to be treated well. For others, it would be to finally apply for a new job in hope of a better work place.
It takes courage to follow your heart, but image how a little bit of courage could plant a seed to a whole new mindset. I call the seed "year 2017"