....moving closer, but can't seem to find my way to you
I'm still trying to

It is crazy how tired I have been lately , and I sleep but I dont feel rested in the morning. I get frustrated.

In SL people are giving me shit because I went back to Fallen. Bur Fallen ones is our home and the only place I feel safe. So please just leave me alone , those that have nothing nice to say about my family , just shut your piehole. FAMILY , they stood by me thru everything , even when I left.

I got some answers about that too , why I make all these irrationell choices. Why I cant seem to focus , feeling so depressed I somedays dont wanna live anymore. I get manic and become super mom...and super wife! Then I crash and I cant get in the shower or even call a friend

I got diagnosed BIPOLAR type 2

Reaper , my love and soulmate. Thank you for always sticking by me , you are the light in my darkness ♥

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With every breath a new day
With love on the line
We've had our share of mistakes
But all your flaws and scars are mine

Yesterday we spent a few hours at the most amazing beach. The sun even set and the day turned into night before we left.



.....Let's find a place by the fire , sometimes I feel strange as it seems
you've been in my dreams all my life
It's a crazy world out there , let's hope our prayers are in good hands tonight

The love for the people in the family we joined became the reason we left. We are still friends and I adore them.

I am so lucky to have my amazing Man. He always stands by me...never questions...He just wants me happy

All pictures are made by me



They ask me all these questions Give me these lectures It's gettin' old

So many suggestions On my direction Where I should go

Been quiet here I know , 2016 was a rough year. So much happend to me in RL , and that had its effect on my SL. I drifted apart from my closest one in world.

So many times I got sad just opening Facebook seeing everything I was missing , ..and being kinda jealous. That went on for months and months. And I became so unhappy.

We decided to moven on from our amazing clan family Fallen Ones. We stayed in curse for about 6 months. We didnt spend much time in world...and I was finding myself again.

Logging on to Facebook didnt make me sad anymore. , it made me happy. I have everything in RL...EVERYTHING.

But just now , a few days ago we moved on , we joined a new family and so far we are enjoying it. I am looking forward to this new start



....I´ve come to talk with you again , because a vision softly creeping , and the vision that was planted in my brain still remains within the sound of silence

Silence is the best word to explain my absense ...and now , I am trying to get back to my old self and just maybe I will be able to blog a bit.

I am in a very calm place in my SL life at the moment. Of course there are ups and downs. Friends drift apart and others come closer.

I dont love anyone any less , but my love for others grow. Some people you just have that connection with.

And my Reaper , my amazing husband , that sometimes is so bitter that I want to strangle him , but , He loves me broken , and I love him bitter. The Ying to my Yang , the sun to my moon



And the haters gonna hate, hate, hate, hate, hate
Baby, I'm just gonna shake, shake, shake, shake, shake
I shake it off, I shake it off

There are those days when I miss her , like REALLY miss her



....and I´ll try to hold my head up high

So.....those who know me must have noticed I have been on a downspiral lately. And yes , it´s been bad , and since I dont have any medication left I self medicate the only way I know how. Just once tho , and just a tiny little bit...because it takes the edge off and calms me. Feels like I´m on the outside of a glass house , looking in on those who are inside....and I want to speak but the glass is soundproof so no one hears me.

It´s hard for me to reach out so I get quiet...but that dont mean I love you any less




...I wanna dance with my baby

I had my first DJ set at The Church last night. I was so nervous but I think it went ok. I had so much fun even tho I was so focused on SAM and to get things right.

I feels good to get more involved in the family and helping out where I can



...and tomorrow was to late

It´s been quiet I know but I havent really felt inspired.

“There comes a point in your life when you realize:
Who matters,
Who never did,
Who won't anymore,
And who always will.
So, don't worry about people from your past, there's a reason why they didn't make it to your future.”

I didnt think that saying would ever have any meaning for me , it was something everyone else said....but. I reached that point in my life too.

I dont choose sides and try my best to be neutral. But I will never turn my back on my own feelings and about the love I feel for people. And if there are those that walk away , it is their loss.

I am a Fallen one from head to toe and I will forever be loyal to my family. I spend time with those I love and I am having so much fun.

Tomorrow I will do my first DJ set at The Church...omg , I am so nervous , I hope not too many people will show up *lol*

Today is mothers day in Sweden and I am so lucky that I have my family. My 2 oldest made me breakfast in bed , they had made me beautiful cards and drawings. I hope you all are enjoying your Sunday...tomorrow is a whole new week and I hope summer will find its way to the northern part of our country

Come here summer...I am ready for you...BRING IT *ooooot*



you can talk to me , and as we grow old I promise to love you with all that I have

Its pretty clear that I havent been blogging lately, I bet we all have been hurt one way or another in SL. And this one really

got to me...cause I didnt see it coming. I lost my best friends in this mess. BUT I am back where I belong.

Been really down too , my depression had a hard grip on me. So they put me on anafranil thru IV fluids. Makes me

really tired , so I sleep alot , but holy mother of someone. The meds is working!

Oooooh My SL

My love and I are back at Fallen and it feels like we never left, I love it!

I cant mention everyone that is important to me. but...

My mother..Anna , and my auntie aly and auntie Skittles

missing my noc <3

I have been so so down

And my handsome man who always have been here for me.

There is not enough love in this world to express the way I feel

but when I see our son , playing or when he wants sit with us and just cuddle

There is my expression

We have a baby

made from our love

​Oh...this morning....a normal morning at Fallen *laughs*