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​This letter is to you. 

We work, damn hard we work. Ever sense we have been kids we have worked hard and have had that eternal pursuit after something. But what is it we are really working so hard for. We go to school for about 24 something years, but for what? What is it we are going to school and working so hard for.  What is it that we want to accomplish so bad we are willing to put our own health at risk. And some even take their own life. But for what. 

I have to this day gone to school for fifteen years, I have one and a half years left of school before I go on to University. But what the fuck am I really doing. My eighteenth birthday is in a couple of months. What have I done with my life. What even is my personal eternal pursuit. Will I ever find out?

Do you know your own eternal pursuit? What is it? 

With love,

-Jo Aspelin

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Hiya,
dear lovely people.

I know I have not really written anything over the holidays, I have really just rested. And I really needed it. I will start again now after all the big holidays. I have other wise had a wonderful holiday and Christmas break from school.

Right now I am sitting on the train on my way to pick my amazing friends coming up from Gothenburg. They are staying with me this week and we are going to have so much fun🖤 Chitchating, cuddles and a whole lots of food. Is there anything better than that? But today we are just walking around town to shop and just having a wonderful day. Our other friend Olivia is joining us😍

What have you guys done over the holidays?

With love,

-Jo Aspelin❤

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This letter is to you.

I woke up on Christmas eve morning around 8 a clock. I was exited, to see what my big brother had got me for a present as he had barged to me how good it was and he was completely sure that I would love it, I was also exited to see my relatives (specially my little cousin, he is the cutest little thing. He is like a little old man and he is four). I got up to eat some breakfast, for once. After my breakfast and a great amount of tea later I thought that I should start getting ready somehow. I had a lot of time, so I stared with painting my nails that usually goes unpainted, I did actually not paint them black like I usually do when I paint them. (I painted them in a more nude colour with small black details on). Afterwards I started doing my makeup, eyeliner, a nude eye-shadow look (with help from the Naked 2 palette), foundation and that shit, I went all glam with some really cool falsies (false eyelashes). My body I dressed with a simple black dress that is a bit flowy, with a added tying choker necklace. My hair I just mad a half up half down kind of look.

Side track: I started wearing chokers long before it became trendy again, just sayin. The same with bandannas.

Our guest came at around one, as we had asked them to. We did decide to not have the normal Christmas food, meatballs, ham, potatoes, mustered herring (gross by the way), ribs and etc. We only had some herring for starters (that I obviously did not eat) and for main we had fillet of beef/undercut with an amazing potato gratin and some red wine sauce.

At three pm we all sat down to watch Donald Duck, as everyone does in Sweden on Christmas eve. It is played on one of our public none cable channels (SVT1). And after Donald Duck you usually get a special visit from a elderly dude in red cloths. And he gives everyone a present, if you have been nice all year that will say.

After the Santa looking guy has left and all the presents is open, there is that sought after desert. We had Ice cream, cookies and sponge cake.

Then you just kick out your guests....

No, I am only kidding. We just sit down and chill for awhile. Braging about our presents and thanking everyone. Which brings us back to my big brother and what he got me for Christmas. He got me tickets for WWE LIVE in Stockholm. I REPEAT; TICKETS TO GO SEE WWE LIVE IN STOCKHOLM. I love wrestling so much #nerd. And not only that he got great fucking seats to. Srsly best Christmas present almost ever.

I hope you guy had/have a great Christmas to. Merry Christmas and Happy holidays!


With Love,

-Jo Aspelin

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This letter is to you.

I am not dead even though I feel like I am. There has been a long Autumn term/semester in school, for me. Was it for you to? And I am exhausted.

We celebrated Christmas yesterday in my family. And most parts of Sweden did. I had a wonderful day, with lots of food, family and presents. More about yesterday will come later today. So stay tuned!

With Love,

-Jo Aspelin

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This letter is to you.

Is it Fall or Winter in November. I mean, the climate of Sweden does not really know. It was snowing like a week ago and I mean SNOWING there was chaos. But today it is +8 degrees Celsius outside and a few rain drops is falling from the sky. I don't understand. They have predicted it to freeze over night so that there will be a big drop of temperature here in Stockholm.

Other than the fucked up weather this month has passed so quickly it scares me a little bit. In more or less a week its December. And we get even closer to Christmas and a new year 2017. Not only that after this school semester is finished I have officially gone half of my time in Gymnasiet (3 years is full time) and I have soon finished 1,5 years. I am fucking graduating soon. I am closer and closer to start Uni and even closer than that is my 18th birthday taking place the 26th of April. Why does the time pass so fast. Were have the year 2016 gone, I know there is not a whole lot we want to remember of this year but still. WTF.

I hope that you guys have had a cozy Fall/Autumn at least, as we get closer to winter here in Sweden. (Or winter and winter, the last couple of years we barley had any snow on Christmas Eve and sectioning at 8 degrees Celsius the full month of December. )


With lots of Love,

-Jo Aspelin

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This letter is to you.

Oh My Fucking God. I can't believe that this happened...

A couple of months back at my best friend Emelies birthday party, she had invited to of her guy friends that where from the area where she lives, that the rest didn't really know. So one of them two guys and me hit it of, or really Fay pushed us together and we happened to start to Make Out. We were like that the rest of the night. And I haven't seen or met him sense.

So yesterday evening I was in this big mall with my dad, cause we were going to leave my phone on repair at the Apple store there. This mall just happens to be in the area where Emelie lives. Me and my dad were sitting down to eat dinner at TGI Fridays, when I got a text from the apple store that it was my turn to get help of a specialist. So obviously I leave my Dad at our table to run over to the Apple Store. I leave the restaurant, there was this really short walk to the Apple Store, but just as I turn left I see a guy standing right outside a licorice store (working for the store). The guys standing there is the guy from Emelies birthday party. He is looking right at me and I right at him. We both knowing who the other one is. You could have cut the awkward tension with a butter knives. Me being me I didn't believe who I was seeing so I walked passed with my sights on Apple, but then I heard him talk. I died. I literally died. SERIOUSLY THOUGH IT WAS THE MOST AWKWARD MOMENT EVER. For me at least.

Not only did I have to walk pass this licorice store ones more on my way back to Fridays, after me and my dad finished our meal, Dad decided to walk that way. Making me walk the same way again passing the licorice store once more. (He did not know how much this pained me though). Me and the guy from the party looking eyes for a second time that evening did not make the awkward tension any easier. One more thing that only made the awkwardness build higher then a skyscraper was his awkward wave and my acknowledging just as awkward smile. The fact that there was no verbal communication the Awkwardness made the atmosphere horribly tense.


With Love,

-Jo Aspelin


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This letter is to you.

I was looking out my bedroom window in the morning the other day. And saw a light cover over the ground of powdered snow. As some may say the winter is finally here. It is Christmas soon, I am so exited. And god I wish I was you. With only four weeks left of this semester and just a couple of weeks more of the year, The stress is real. Buying better Christmas present then last year and finishing up school assignments that we do not fully understand. Wishing we could be outside playing in the snow with the smaller ones, building snowman with carrots as noses and sticks as arms even raisins as eyes and buttons. The wind hitting our face surprising us year after year, making our cheeks turn a pink blushing colour. Dancing out in the cold snow with hats, gloves, scarfs and boots on. The stress still fresh everyday, like the snow falling from the sky covering our cars and houses. Cover out cloths after a morning run.

What do we really stress about? The cold snow falling from the clouds or the fact that we lose time for every second passing. Me looking forward to the next break over Christmas when I just came back from a week long Fall break. Do we stress about the people we do not feel like we give enough time. What is it we are really stressing about. The busses or the trains being late? Or is it just a feeling like love, happy, sad, hurt and afraid.


With love,

-Jo Aspelin

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​This letter is to you.

I do not know were to start, I miss you guys so much. I am going to be honest I didn't think I would miss you guys this much. At times it breaks my heart little by little not having you guys here. Just not seeing you guys every day. Or just having you here next to me, next to us (me and Fatima). 

Thinking back on everything. I miss you guys advice on guys, Ella's straight forward real good honest ones with Freja's positive input commentary. I just miss you. I don't even have enough words to describe how much I really really miss you guys. 

I see you guys having a good time over the pound in the US. I don't want you guys have any less fun then you are having, hey have even more fun. I will always have you guys in my mind and heart. I will be there when you guys come home.

I just miss you!

With so much love,

-Jo Aspelin

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This letter is to you.

I don't even know what the fuck is happening in my mind.

You know about my last crush I wrote about? Yeah I don't think that crush is still there. So I thought I had got a new crush on another guy, lets call him Leo. He is nothing like the first guy, that we can call Jake. Leo is more like a baby face kind of dude but he really cute and tall, taller then me. Were Jake is right about my height and has this more bad boy look/image about him.

But yesterday I had this really weird dream. There is this guy in my class and year, he is really polite, nice and all that. With all that he is not ugly ( he obviously has a GF), he is really caring to. We can call him Ted. The dream was sett in someones house, in the living room, I can't really tell who's. And there was quite a few people there, but there wasn't a party with music ans such. It was just like a couple of friends hanging out. Me and Ted with the rest were sitting down on the couch, Ted and I sitting next to each other. There was a really nice atmosphere going on, people having nice conversations and laughing. Ted had his arm slung over the back of the couch (not around me over, but like hugging me like friends) you know? All of a sudden he leaned in to me to whisper something to me. At the same time as he start talking he holds my arms like crossed so I would not be able to really move. "I have noticed you getting a lot thinner. It is starting to get kind of dangerous. You know I workout ad I know that what you are doing is wrong. I have seen it before. This is not okay, you have to eat!" I could just feel my whole body freeze to the coldest ice on the earth. I looked up at him and all I saw was the look on his face was a mix in between really pissed off (angry) and woried. And there is were I woke up.

I have thought about what this could mean. What is my subconscious telling me? Why is it Ted that showed up in my dream? Do I have a crush on Ted? or is my mind telling me something else? In that case what the fuck is it trying to tell me?! And what is the tingling feeling I have in my belly or the confused on in my heart?

But what about Jake and Leo?

I don't understand. Can someone please help me! please I am on my knees begging.

This is serious, please answer me. Anyone out there that could help me please write back! It can be in both English or Swedish. But please help me and write back!

With love,

-Jo Aspelin

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This letter is to you.

I do not know if all of you know how the fall in Sweden is. The thing is neither do any one or me either. Sometimes its really nice, warm all along. Like this September was very warm in Stockholm, more like the summer warm. You could walk around in shorts and a tanktops. So the Fall/Autumn came over night. One day it was all nice and green, but when you wake up after a night sleep there was all these different colours leefs, the temperature was down to a zero or just little above a zero and it was very cold or chilly outside. The thicker coats, hats and gloves or mittens were put on our bodies. Not only did it get cold real fast but up here north it got dark. In Sweden in the winter its get dark real early I mean the sun goes down as early as like 3pm but only goes up at almost 10am. So we get very little sun light time. Another thing with the darkness is that people get very tired quite early because our bodies think its later or earlier in the morning and evening then it really is.

Think about it. We go to school, work or etc, in the morning and its dark out. and when we are on our way home in the evening or after noon its dark. The mood of us living here gets almost grumpier for everyday that passes. But we have to remember those cosy nights in, with your best friends or family. With snacks in lots, great movies, some candles. I mean how would you be able to go through Autumn or fall up here if we did not have those. They are necessary.

It is cold, it is dark, but ohh so beautiful (most of the time). Lets not take away the fact that the colours dressing the trees and bushes are dazzling. I would like it even more if there could be warmer but still keep the colours on outside. But we all can't get what we want can we?

Under this post (I hope) I have posted some pictures of some trees and bushes I walked past this morning. It was raining by the way.

With love,

-Jo Aspelin

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