As time flies, way above me. It's been a long way waiting for this to come and now it's practically gone. And I could not be happier about it.
Every stage we go through during our lifetime ends. That's just how it is, something we must accept and deal with. The essence of summer is that ends. Otherwise, it wouldn't be so special.
Life has more surprises and adventures for me to come next year, I can feel it. This it's been a different summer. I'm not used to leave while the party continues for everyone here as in Spain, they start school at Sep 15th. Although I did it last summer, it still feels rare. All I can say is that I'm very excited for this new course coming up plus getting into new phases on my life and knowing new people. I've enjoyed myself to the fullest during this summer, and that's what I'm gonna keep doing next week in school, as well.
Enjoying life to the fullest, and to be happy. That's my main aspiration in life.

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Spending the summer here in Spain and it feels so great btw. Finally got to see my old friends, hanging out more often, plus getting some tan too. Focusing on positivity and getting some strength to deal with the swedish winter afterwards, but happily proud of my last efforts that gave me many results. Enjoying is the only task I have to care about right now.

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Last night I had the privilege to feel something very pure and beautiful and I decided to share it. It's been such a long way since I moved to Sweden. I won't lie, it hasn't been easy at all. First of all, I'm not used to this cold, this winter, this way of living. I'm not used to cold ways while treating people, as most people do here. I'm not used to take that long to get to school everyday. Conversely, I'm used to the sun. I'm used to live besides the school. I'm used to be able to go out anytime since the weather in Málaga lets you do whatever no matter what season is.
I've found myself alone. I've seen my life boring and repetitive. I've wondered if it's worth it. And last night I just remembered it truly is. Last night, with this stunning sunset that blows my mind and lets me speechless since the first time I saw it, I remembered why I chose to be here. This beautiful place takes me to my first trip to Sweden, three years ago. I was thirteen and I went all the way alone because I just wanted to visit my friend. I wasn't scared at all, I did not even get to understand why people where that worried regarding me flying alone to another country at the age of thirteen. Once there, I loved it. I fell in love so deep. I loved how people in your neighborhood greet you although they don't know you. I loved how open-minded people are. I just was looking for somewhere where I could get to be myself without being judged 24/7. And I find it.
Afterwards, around two years later, I decided I wanted to study baccalaureute in Sweden, and with my friend's help, I find some schools where I could make it. I remember how excited I was and what a hard time I had actually. Anyway, although I did not even apply for a school in Södertälje because I knew how close-minded it was, here I am. I just determined even though that place was not what I wanted, I'd live in Sweden and I'd got a better education and a beautiful experience, what was my main goal. Somehow, over time, it turned as a disappointment. I've been kind of mad because I knew how liberal Sweden is and I had to deal with many people with no respect at all towards diversity. Fortunately, I met beautiful people in my school. Not many, if I compare them to the rest of people who have done their best to try to make me feel uncomfortable anytime I was there just for being myself. Nowadays, I'm very proud to say I'm no longer giving them any power to make me feel self-conscious just because they haven't learnt yet to love people because of what they are, instead of what they look like.
All in all, I had several highs and lows but never gave up, and, tonight, staring at this beautiful lake that makes me feel so many emotions, I find out I still choose Sweden. I still choose that cold and other things I'm not used to, as I oughtn't to ask for perfection. Sweden has flaws and I know. Well, Spain has too. It's easy to think about how good Spain is when you're freezing and you check everyday in Snapchat how fun is it to have a winter between 15º-20º, but it's not fair either. Sweden's education system is very advanced and not many people has the chance to do what I'm doing, nor the ability.
This amazing and inspiring sunset has given me strength, hope, faith and live. It gave me also memories, the why I wanted to be here.
So now I know.

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Tbh this last trip was dope. I've been a few times in Spain since I moved to Sweden and, I never thought this trip would've that special so far. First of all, seeing my relatives and closest friends revitalizes me so badly. I love lots of things about Sweden, as a matter of fact, I do love a lot of people here. But Spain got the damn sun! Therefore, it also has more stuff to do and it's easier to have fun there. Indeed it has also fifteen years of my life, hence, countless memories. I don't think my Spanish relatives and friends will ever get to understand how bad I miss them.

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